Monday Mindful Manifestation

I know it’s been a minute since I’ve blogged anything; my mind has just been thrown around everywhere. I really wanted to do blog/vlogmas but I just wasn’t prepared at all. It’s okay, I can jump in now, it’s not too late to!

This week I’m trying to get things back on track. Trying to get back to updating my shop and my shop blog as well as post more on my Disney and food accounts. I’ve just felt so stuck… most so than usual here. And I think I get like this every time I come back from Florida too… I remember how alive it feels there and to come back to TX where it feels slow paced… just sucks. Literally wondering why I even moved here, honestly.

This quote from Hamilton really struck a cord with me, because it’s been a quote/concept I’ve carried around with me my whole life. It’s also probably why I’m not a huge fan of Burr. I’m more like Hamilton in so many ways.

I told my BFF that 2022 is going to be the find yourself bitch year. Which means going wherever my soul tells me I need to go. Be around the people who have always had my back. Be the real me and not whoever people here think I am.

And if I don’t stand for the things that make me me, then what will I fall for?

This week I want to manifest just that — to do the things that make me me. Time is ticking and I’m not getting any younger. I’m tired of being unhappy and it’s up to me to change that.

What is something you want to manifest this last month of 2021?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

This Fall has been… very insightful so far. Very, very… insightful. And life can throw us a ton of curve balls as well as drop us in the darkest of places with no idea on how to get tf out.

But for the first time in a long time, I’m fine this Fall. November can be a hard month for me so I fill it with being nonstop busy. Doing NaNoWriMo, going to school, picking up a ton of reading challenges. Anything that gives me no room to be idle in November. But this year I want nothing more than just that. To be idle. I wish I could talk more about why but it’s not something I want to get into just yet.

This week I’m hoping to get some catching up done. As well as packing for my trip. Setting plans on when I’ll see my friends when I’m in Florida and putting up the holiday stuff on my Etsy and my shop. I wish I could stay in Florida longer than just 3 days. But it’s better than nothing. I’ll be back soon!

This week I want to manifest patience. In trusting the universe and the process. In having the ability to focus and stay in my lane. Amazing things can happen if you give yourself the chance to manifest them.

What is something you want to manifest this week?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

This week is pretty much You Got It by Vedo.

This Fall/Winter fuckery in TX is really throwing me off and making me feel drained and cold. Two things I do not like! I tried going to the gym yesterday in my complex and there were kids fucking around in there being hella loud and taking up all the machines to just play on them. Then they went outside to smoke Black & Milds. Literally thought I moved AWAY from this type of shit. So I ended up just walking around the complex and to 711 for snacks. Granted the complex is huge, so it’s fine. Plus it was super nice outside. It made me miss chillen with my friends back home.

Go get that degree, focus on me.

There’s something comforting about a friend, or whatever telling you to focus on them when you’re trying to change a situation in your life. And even though I’m not friends with said dude that this reminds me of, still glad he was there when he was. Random memory.

I’m hoping to get caught up with blogging and a bit of reading this week. I should aim to put new products up on the shop but honestly… I haven’t opened Procreate in like 2 weeks. I’m stumped when it comes to holiday ideas. It should be WAY EASY to come up with something but my mind is just blank. I also have to get ready for our trip to Orlando — I’m hoping I pick up some inspo while I’m here. I miss Orlando so much.

This week I’m manifesting;

More energy by hopefully setting a regular sleeping schedule (as much as I can). The energy to catch up on Nov blog posts and work on my core/ab work outs. I’m not trying to pull my back on the trip!

What are your goals for this week?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

I tend to forget I control my life. No one else does and no one else has the right to.

That just because I’m not happy with where I am, doesn’t mean it’ll be like this forever and to work for the life I want. I told myself that I wouldn’t let someone else stop me from doing the things I want anymore and I really need to remind myself of that this week.

I’m capable of anything and I need to stop selling myself short!

Monday Mindful Manifestation

Ooh look what’s back this week! Idk if it’s Mercury Retrograde but this weekend has been flooded with a few hard hitting realizations.

Sunday was World Mental Health Day and USUALLY I have some well thought out post on social media and my blogs but this weekend I was just… I had the worst creative block. And a sneezing fit. But that’s different.

And if I could grant you peace of mind, would it be enough?

Something about this segment that seems to repeat itself through out Hamilton lives rent free in the front of my mind lately, not just that but it strikes a cord with me.

I struggled a lot growing up. I was shy because I was insecure. I was insecure because I was never encouraged; I was encouraged by my Lolo but he passed away when I was 9 and I had nothing after that. I was told a lot of hurtful things growing up that undermined my intelligence, my perception of myself being a good person, my beauty, my anything. Anything you could think of. I spent a lot of my childhood depressed and feeling worthless. I TRULY DEEPLY felt like I was a waste of space. That everyone in my life would be so much better off and happier without me bringing them down or getting in their way.

I still carry these insecurities with me. I’m MUCH more aware of them and it only took me 30-something years to realize most of them were far from true. Here’s the thing though — you could be 110% aware that something isn’t true about you. But because it was drilled into your head that it “is true” you start to doubt yourself. DESPITE KNOWNING that it’s not true.

I had refused to wear shorts and skirts and dresses until I was 31. And I fuckin lived in Florida. I refused to be outside of my house in anything less than a tee shirt. I hated my legs, I hated my shoulders, I hated my collarbone. I hated that I was flat chested. I couldn’t understand why anyone would truly be attracted to me. At 13 I started thinking about suicide. At 14 I met my really sweet friend Dru. He was adorable and popular and he was really sweet and kind. And I was like, in love with him for awhile, I asked him out like 5 times and he said no every single time. It’s cool, I never held it against him. And honestly we’ve been really close friends for the last 21 years, so.

I have so many memories of him convincing me that I’m worth something. That my life is mine to make. And even now 21 years later he still reminds me he needs me here. This year I’ve been reminded that people really fuckin love me. People really fuckin support me. I have the MOST amazing friends a girl could ask for.

This is getting way longer than I thought it would.

My friends have played a huge part in helping me build myself back up.

Just stay alive, that would be enough

I caught COVID in May and the amount of friends who would check up on me, who sent me get well gifts… was touching. I know my friends love and care about me, but I guess I just didn’t really think about how much I meant to them. This year has been reminders of exactly that and it’s something I’ve needed.

This week I want to manifest that everything I think I am, I am. I want to stop selling myself short.

5 Ways to Self Sabotage Your Own Health

5 Ways to Self Sabotage Your Own Health

When it comes to our own health we tend to make excuses for ourselves, yet when it comes to someone else’s sometimes we have the most to say when it’s really not our place/business. I know I’m guilty of this! I don’t eat as well as I use to (really trying though) but I do know I think about it often and tell myself next week, next month. It’s not about going hot turkey (is that the opposite for cold turkey or nah) on being health conscious, it’s about making mindful steps towards better habits for yourself.

But we’re not talking about that here, we’re talking about the 5 ways you can sabotage your own health (and yourself).

| Eating straight up crap

Eating crap will make you feel like crap. Period. I love McDonald’s just as much as the next person but eating it all week or super frequently can’t be good for you. There are some times I can eat something super unhealthy and just feel it cling to my insides if that makes sense lol. Fast food places offer healthier stuff but at the end of the day, it’s still fast food.

I know for me when I add more fruits and veggies into my meals I tend to feel better. Less heavy. The only thing I can’t kick is soda and coffee. But hey, well have to have “our thing”. Though sometimes coffee really makes me feel worse than better. I know this one is a “duh” but it still needs to be pointed out.

| Being un-active and wondering why you’re always tired

I’m totally outting myself with this one.

Since moving to TX I don’t go out as much as I use to, and when I do, I don’t do a lot of walking like I did when I lived in Florida. Bub isn’t big on walking and since it’s hot here the majority of the year, sometimes he won’t even leave the car. That makes it hard for me to find time to just walk like I use to. Because of this, my sciatic nerve has been acting up and that shit is not fun. I do find on days when I walk a lot it’s not as painful.

Makes me miss living in Florida and going to Disney World all the time.

I do find that when I’m less busy/active I tend to be MORE tired. I mean I don’t sleep well and I haven’t since 2006 (really need to get that checked) and since giving birth I REALLY don’t sleep at night; but I try to be active. Tums likes to play hide and seek and kick ball (in the apartment) so I take every chance I can to actively play with her. I find that if I’m more active during the day I’m less likely to want/need a nap; verses when I’d spend all day in bed or have nothing going on, I tend to be more tired and sleepy.

| Ignoring your own boundaries

I think most people are guilty of this one because we want to avoid conflict. Which is totally valid. But what is the fine line between it all? Everyone has their own set of boundaries for a reason, and sure we let people slide from time to time to avoid conflict but that’s just us self sabotaging.

Boundaries are hard for other people to understand, especially if your boundary is something that was “okay” at one point or if it’s something they don’t like — or can’t control you with. But it’s important to you and your well being to stand by your boundaries and enforce them when they need to be.

| Drowning yourself in work because you can’t find/afford therapy

Hai, me outting myself again!

Therapy is a bitch to find in TX and when you do find it, you have to go through so many things just to be able to finally SEE a therapist. It’s so crazy and time consuming. I have a habit of throwing myself into work in general but also intensely so when I’m in a mood.

The Rock says this interesting thing a lot: “I hit the gym so hard because I refuse to go to therapy.” or some shit. But that was my eye opening moment that everyone goes through it and a lot of us find vices instead of help. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with that, at all. I think this habit of mine is productive, but that’s just me.

| Not listening to yourself

Your gut won’t lie to you. Ever.

If you feel like a place, person or situation isn’t good for you… you’re probably right. If you feel like your body is telling you to chill tf out and rest, you probably need to. WE usually know what’s best for us, more than anyone else but we listen to everything and everyone else BUT ourselves.

It’s def time to start listening to ourselves more.

What are some other ways that belong on this list?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

Talk less, smile more. Don’t let them know what you’re against or what you’re for.

Possibly the worst advice I’ve ever heard. I watched Hamilton not too long ago and I’m completely utterly obsessed. It’s been the only thing I’ve been thinking about for DAYS now. I mean I started listening to the soundtrack months before I decided to watch it. I just figured it wasn’t my type of musical. Despite 2021 seems to be my year of historical fiction.

That moment when you realize you’re probably Alexander Hamilton in this musical. Minus the advice he gave his kid. I refuse to watch that entire scene ever again. Mf I was sobbing and I never cry at movies.

It’s a pet peeve of mine to come across people who don’t stand for anything. Not just that, but have the audacity to stop someone else from standing what they believe in. I don’t need anyone to fight my battles, never have and never will. But also, don’t stand in my way. If you don’t agree with me, cool. Sit ya ass down. My ex husband (when he was still my bf) hated that I was pro-gay up until we divorced. He literally thought that children who are AROUND gays would turn gay themselves. I remember buying a shirt when I was 19 that said “I you don’t believe in gay marriage, don’t marry one” and he thought it was “stupid”. He hated that I was passionate about animal rights. He hated that I wasn’t a fan of eating meat either. And don’t even get me started on how “stupid” he thought being vocal about mental health was. Or how he was convinced I was “making up” OCD and anxiety because “that shit isn’t real” DESPITE that I went to therapy for 8 years. That he would come with me to. WEEKLY. But you know, yeah, I’m def making this shit up. Mf, what.

It was his theory that if you stayed quiet, no one would have anything against you. Spoiler alert: if a mf wants to hate on you, they will.

I think I’ll talk more and smile less. I think I’ll let them know what I’m for and against so there isn’t a chance for miscommunication. Is it possible to manifest staying true to yourself?

Btw, Aaron Burr annoys me lol.

Monday Mindful Manifestation

Hey guys!

I know this post is going up late but at least it’s going up today lol!

Last week/end was a bit challenging; where one part of my life did amazing, it wasn’t without some kind of drama. Which is fine, sisters fight or disagree. It’s what they do. But the drama was escalated a little further than that. Which I wasn’t expecting. But that’s all I’m going to say about that. I’m not going to let anything distract me from something I worked hard for, the universe likes to throw curve balls.

I have some super exciting things going into production for my shop this week. My husband also drew a few ghost Pokemon’s for me to use since I was flipping my shit over how much I was struggling with them. One of them is going to be my Ko-Fi option for October as a keychain! There’s also an option for a sticker instead or both! I was hoping to launch it for Sept but I haven’t come up with a theme sooo, yeah, that shipped sailed lol.

This week I’m also planning my Disney Halloween trip! I’m super excited for this and I’ll be trying both Halloween snacks as well as Food & Wine eats! I’m also going to be seeing some friends I missed on my last trip that I’m absolutely looking forward to seeing — and a brand new cutie who’s due this week!

This week I want to manifest;

The reminder that even if something else in your life is sinking, it doesn’t mean everything else sucks. Not at all. The ability to be able to choose what I want to invest my energy in, foreal this time and do exactly that.

… and the ability to post reguarly here again!

Wishing you all a safe and productive week ahead!

Monday Mindful Manifestation

Hey all you wonderful people!

So glad to be here for another MMM and I know it’s been a minute since I’ve posted one.

Designing Fall & Halloween tees and stickers have been my biggest projects this month and I’m super excited about them!

I managed to make a handful of sales last week, and I’m so thankful for that and the support! I redid my Ko-fi page to now include memberships where I send out monthly stickers and keychains depending on which one you pick! I’m having a lot of fun designing stickers and tees and I’m both excited and extremely overwhelmed with getting the Fall/Halloween stuff up!

There still moments, lots of moments, where I don’t know if what I’m doing is worth it. But as long as I’m having fun and as long as it’s helping my mental health, it is def worth it. At least that’s what I remind myself.

Dreams won’t work unless you do.

Manifestation is crazy; and it’s something I believed in for a really long time but didn’t know there was a word for it. But I truly believe if I stay focused, and if I keep my mind positive and clear then I can achieve anything. Even something as crazy as seeing this tiny business of mine take off. And I know the universe is there to see me and hear me.

This week I’m manifesting just that: to keep my mind positive and clear and work as hard as I can. And to remind myself that the universe got’s me.

What’s something you want to manifest this week? Beyond that, how have ya’ll been?

Life Update | Oh hi, I miss you

Since prepping and launching my Etsy store, my blogs and most of my social media have kind of.. been pushed to the side. Not on purpose, it just sort of happened.

I did finally launch my Etsy shop, which I’m very excited about. What started off as a Disney creative outlet turned into a Filipino inspired one instead. I do have a bunch of Fall ideas that are Disney/non Filipino themed, but it’s just crazy how that sort of happened. I’ve been playing with a bunch of sticker paper and I even gave in and bought a full sized Cricut because the Joy was pissing me off. So now I’m on the search for my favorite type of paper and finding the right lament… and holographic paper. It’s a lot lol. Ironically the tee’s are way easier to design/produce. There isn’t much there to search for lol.

I got to see Wicked for the 15th time last night as an anniversary gift from Bub. In all the 14 times I’ve seen Wicked no one else has bought my (or the person coming with me) tickets. So it was kind of nice to have him buy my tickets but I also felt super bad. We did have floor seats and I’m glad he enjoyed the musical. The Glinda on tour is my favorite. She’s so extra and bubbly and cute. I loved her performance! Tums didn’t come with us, but we bought her a Wicked plushie lol. We had to. We’re those parents. She loves him though, so that’s all that matters.

Literally all of July in my camera roll is shirts and stickers I’ve been designing, inspo shots and like the random Target trip lol.

I am however SO ready for Fall!

How have all of you been? I miss being here!