Hello April~

Welcome to my birthday month and Aries season!

Aries season doesn’t seem to be the best season for my fellow Aries this year. I’ll try again in the Fall when everything dies I mean, preps for rebirth. Yeah, that’s what I meant.

Both my BFF and I have gotten into streaming this passed week and we’re trying to find ways to set up our Twitch channels. If you’re into Call of Duty and GTA go give him a follow even though he only streams SUPER late at night. I moderate it if I’m up. If you’re into cozy gaming and just chillen out give me a follow. I don’t have a set schedule just yet. So far I just stream FFXIV as I get use to it and the new changes they’ve made to the hot bars. So if you wanna watch me run around like an idiot for a bit, feel free to!

The depression from March prevented me from planning anything for my birthday this year so… that sucks. Maybe I should just stick to planning my birthday in Dec/Jan when I’m not hit with trauma and depression. I’m really hoping next year I’ll be in a much better head space when Tums birthday comes up. I’m hoping distance and being surrounded by my actual support system with help me heal.

| Figure out what to do with moving

The whole rent situation for April took a turn so having to figure out how to get the other half of rent was pretty stressful. I’m thankful for the friends I have who are always willing to help me.

| Set up the streaming

I pulled my ACNH Switch back out again and I need to reinstall my capture card. So far I’ve only been streaming FFXIV but I really want to stream Switch and PC games too.

| Get back to a healthy lifestyle [ better eating choices, meditation, yoga, working out ]

I really want to achieve this this year. It’s so hard to start though. But once you do, and you get a routine going, it’s effortless. It’s just getting there. I mostly want to stop pulling my lower back and work on my mental health starting with fitness.

| Find something fun or chill to do for my birthday day

I really have no plans for my birthday this year. The whole depression of March took over my mind space. I did try to book a trip to Disney but it’s all booked up since my birthday falls on Easter week (at least it’s not ON Easter this year) and honestly it was too expensive to even fly anywhere from TX. A friend of mine from home is coming out here though so I may hang out with them. I miss my friends and I wish I could had at least just flown out to NorCal.

| Schedule a trip to Disney World before Flower & Garden ends

This kinda falls in the same as the last — Flower & Garden ends in July so I’m really hoping to make it there before then! F&G is one of my favorite events at Disney World, period!

| Revamp this blog

I want to do some blog post updates, SEO updates, change the subjects/topics and sort of just find a stable niche for this blog. I feel like I’m all over the place sometimes.

| Revamp + add new products to the shop

I def need a new logo and banner design and I need to design more clothing. I also need to start doing monthly themes or something… just something new to add to the whole feed if anything. My shop can’t grow if I don’t give it something to grow into.

| Don’t be afraid to ask friends for help when the hard days come

I hate when people hear or see me cry. It’s the trauma from exes tbh. I tend to forget that my friends don’t think I’m weak for crying and they wouldn’t gaslight me or make me feel bad for crying on the phone especially if it’s about something that really bothers me. I know my friends love me but sometimes it’s still hard to turn to someone when the days feel dark and heavy. I’m trying to be better about that!

I decided against doing a March recap; there wasn’t much of anything other than depression spells in March. So there’s no reason to go and rehash on that. I’m really hoping April will be much kinder.

What are some of your goals for this month?

Hello March

I can’t believe how fast 2022 is moving. Then again I’ve been traveling (and it feels so good to be able to again) so that might also be why it feels like it’s going super fast for me.

Feb was full of trying places I had on my foodie wish list for way too long. Road trips with my BFF’s and being spoiled by my BFF’s and my cousin (for once lol). I was reminded of how loved I am back home and I wonder why I even left… I mean I don’t wonder but I do wonder why I stayed away for so long.

Never let a relationship get in the way of your life and who you are.

I have no idea how March would be able to top Feb, honestly. But here are a few things I hope to achieve;

| Take Tums to Disneyland for her birthday
As much as I would love to go to Disney World, there really isn’t much there for toddlers like there is at Disneyland. She hasn’t been to Disneyland yet and she’s been to WDW twice already lol. I can’t believe I’ll have a 3 year old soon. She’s already like a whole ass human being. I just assume the smarter she gets, the more she will talk back. She’s already started lol.

| Hit Vegas with my cousin
This is the year of doing things I miss and getting back to my roots. It’s been a decade since I’ve been back to Vegas and I miss it so much. I’m hoping to squeeze in a weekend trip to Vegas this month with my cousin or my BFF Dru; even if he’s next level on some shit lol.

| Read 2 books
I just picked up 2 new audiobooks while I was on my trip; they’re both autobiographies. One is by Leslie Odom Jr and his time doing Aaron Burr in Hamilton. I have no excuse to be so far behind on my TBR for this year but here I am. So hopefully I can at least read 2 books this month.

| Take 30 mins every day to do Yoga or some kind of ab work out
I need to be better at my health. And I really need to start being better. It’s hard to set aside time to just do certain things. Obviously working out and reading seems to be it for me this year. But I really want to work on getting my abs back and I really want to get back into eating right again. Even just setting aside 30 mins every day can make a difference.

| Start a skincare routine
My BFF and cousin are begging me to do this. It makes me feel old lol. I admit though, my skin could use some help. So at the advice of my cousin, I picked up a few things that were a lot more than I expected. Shit better do something.

| Work on shop things
My shop needs a huge refresh. I really want to put up more apparel and new sticker designs. I also want to be more active on social media and marketing. I always say I’ll work on some stuff while I’m in Cali but I get so caught up with hanging out with my friends that it doesn’t happen lol. I’m not sure when I’m jetting off next this month so I might as well work on my shop until I figure that out!

| Jump start on Spring cleaning
Spring cleaning has always been the bane of my existence. My mom made it look so effortless. But as I’m low key kind of on the quest to live a more minimalistic life, I figure this is going to be an even bigger task. Let’s hope I start this in the Spring and finish it in the Spring as well lol.

What are some things you’re hoping to start, finish or attempt this month?

Hello March

Anyone else feel like Feb was just the longest Feb this year? I feel like it took forever for this month to end. But so much happened, I guess that’s why it feels that way.

There’s a lot of things that are suppose to be going on this month, so I’m hoping they actually happen. Tums birthday is this month, Easter is at the beginning of April, then my birthday. Thank goodness it’s NOT on Easter this year at least! There are a few book releases I’m excited about as well!

I discovered cozy gaming and looked more into ways to self improve in Feb, so I’m really excited about the things I’m planning in March — or at least as excited as a person who has to do shadow work can get (ain’t nothing exciting about shadow work).

March Goals;

〉 Work on getting my mic to work so I can stream Animal Crossing

〉 Fully plan Tums bday early

〉 Work on eating better and

〉Work on… well work

〉Fix iPad

〉Re-evaluate finances

〉Prep for Easter early

Middle GRADE March

〉Rebrand hazearella & gamearella

〉Gain 200 more blog followers

I’m trying not to overwhelm myself, esp since the next two months are generally really busy for me to begin with. But there are a few key things I do want to try and get done.

March Book Releases I’m Excited About;

There are so many new releases coming out in March! I know I forgot a few… I definitely forgot to include the one by Christina Lauren! But these are the YA reads I’m super excited about!

I’ll be doing Middle Grade March again this year. I’ll somehow find a way to squeeze some of these books in this month if not next. I know adding these to my already huge middle grade TBR is ambitious.

Here’s to hoping March will be productive!

What are some things you want to accomplish this month?

Hello February

This post is going up later than I had wanted it to; I think Tums has hit her terrible 2’s officially cause homegirl is acting like everything is worthy of a meltdown. Some even get several meltdown’s. Her and her dad haven’t been going to his mom’s house once a week like they usually do to give me “my day” because his family caught Covid so they won’t be over there for another few weeks. Or months. Whichever.

January felt both super long and kinda short.

There’s a ton of new releases this month I’m anxiously looking forward to. There’s also Lunar New Year coming up as well as my favorite holiday: Valentine’s Day. I don’t have any VDay tradition anymore… hard to have traditions in Texas honestly. Maybe it’ll be easier when Tums is older.

I spent yesterday working on my Twitch channel. I have to set up my capture card and Switch so I can stream Animal Crossing. But I miss streaming; hopefully a screaming toddler in the background won’t be too much of a problem lol.

I don’t have very many goals this month since I’m trying to be a bit more realistic about them in 2021;

| Start streaming set up

This falls under clean your damn desk as well. Cause right now, it’s a whole hot mess. I need to set up the capture card, the switch, the webcam and the mic. And find somewhere for this Wacom tablet that I use but don’t use. That I don’t really use but would really like to start using, pretty much. I love using Procreate more but it doesn’t hurt to learn how to use 2 different tools.

OFF TOPIC.

So yeah, tidy/clean desk and set that shit up. Like, this week. Like today. Or tomorrow. Or now.

| Tidy books

I don’t have bookshelves just yet. This seems to be an ongoing issue in my life. But I do have those IKEA shelves I had in the last room that acted like bookshelves. Do they hold all my books? Hell no. But I at least had them somewhat themed in the last room whereas in this room… I don’t even know WHAT is going on with them tbh. But whatever it is, it needs to stop. I also need to let some of these books go.

| Tidy office closet

FOR THE LOVE OF. It’s literally a straight up storage closet. I had originally planned to put some of Tums outside/off season clothing in there and obviously some office stuff. Maybe the printer just so it’s not in the way… but as of right now there’s no space on any of the built in shelves for anything. I need to consolidate of the boxes in there as well since they ALL just have clothes. There’s also a few baby baby things and some toys Tums doesn’t even play with anymore I need to get rid of. I get buying kids toys but I also… don’t? Like they don’t really play with all of them. And it really just ends up taking so much space + it’s just more shit for ME to pick up since I’m the one cleaning the most.

| It doesn’t spark joy? It’s gotta go

This has been a never ending goal of mine. To get rid of things that don’t spark joy. But I’m SO AWFUL with letting things go. I’m seriously the worst and every moving season I’m reminded of why am I like dis. But I really want an apartment that reflects that I’m you know, an adult. At least find a home for half this shit. Except the books. Cause again, no bookshelves.

Just thinking about this one is giving me anxiety. Ahh.

| Manage spending, for the love of… is there a finance god?

I read somewhere that some people are madd shopping online since the lockdown’s started happening cause it gives us SOMETHING to look forward to. And you know what, I felt that in my soul. But just because I feel things in my soul doesn’t mean I have to keep doing them. Not to mention Tums bday is coming up and so is mine so if I have any plans to get my shit together N O W would be an awesome time to start.

I need to reevaluate all my subscriptions as well cause shit is nuts. But what’s with all these apps that make you pay to use them? Like I get that I’m too lazy to open Photoshop up sometimes but goddamn. I’m not that lazy to pay $20 for a photo editing app?!

| Prep Easter posts

I always plan to be ahead of the seasonal game and sometimes I manage to do well. Other times, I’m finding, since being a mom, I don’t do as well. I have zero idea’s for Valentine’s Day themed posts for this year and I’m just gonna roll with that. I’m not gonna stress about it. If something hits me, cool. If not, cool too.

Easter however is slowly turning from my holiday to Tums’ holiday. This year she’s big enough to run around and find things. She’s also old enough to identify things. So thinking of covid friendly idea’s is def going to be something I’d like to write about. If not here, then on my motherhood blog!

| SKILLSHARE BITCH

Anyone else cuss at themselves to let themselves know they mean business? It’s like that line from Rap God by Eminem:

Full of myself, but still hungry
I bully myself ’cause I make me do
What I put my mind to

I found 2 months free of Skill Share in Dec? Jan? I don’t remember. Point is, the 2 moths are almost up if not already up. I have a bunch of classes bookmarked like Illustration, SEO, water coloring. There’s so many different classes to take! I really want to brush up on my SEO/social media stuff since it’s been awhile since I’ve really paid attention to it and basically this is how certifications become useless lol. So let’s not do that. I also want to learn illustration. They also have yoga classes, self improvement, manifestation, just a ton of other really cool subjects to choose from. And with this resource at my fingertips why not use it? Like no, seriously.

If you want to take a look at what all they offer here’s my code for 14 days free. No this isn’t sponsored but it’s 2021 and we’re in a pandemic, what do you have to lose?

What’s something you’d want to learn this month or this year?