Hello December

This post was suppose to go up yesterday, but it didn’t. And now today it’s going up late. I’m really kicking off December huh? To be fair though I did get this post up on hazearella at least. Though that was late as well.

It’s the LAST month of 2020. Thank. Freaking. Goodness! And I realized there are a lot of things I didn’t end up posting about. I’m not too into the idea of blogmas this year because I feel like I’m going to fail, again. But I will attempt to post more this month, including the book reviews I need to do!

If you want to see my detailed overly ambitious goals list for this month head over to hazearella. If not, keep reading!

| Blogging & Social Media

I’m thinking of giving up trying to perfect the ways of Instagram because holy shit is it just hard and not making sense anymore! But also I’m starting to feel like networking there is becoming impersonal. And that’s cool, whatever. Social media changes all the time, but it’s just not my cup of Coke. I do want to spend more time on Pinterest, Tailwind and Twitter. I wish I knew how Facebook pages worked cause that would be great too.

As far as blogging; I want to post everything that in the draft queue. Focus a bit more on talking about mental health and post a bit more about food on here. I know I have a whole different blog for that, but for some reason I just can’t seem to get it started. I really wish I had planned some Winter/Holiday content but a toddler and living somewhere with no friends or help and not an ounce of creativity in the air? Is rough. I usually surround myself with like-minded people. But I really dropped that ball several feet by moving to Texas.

| Reading

I have a NetGalley TBR I want to get at least half way through. There’s also 2 Dec titles in there. One I’m currently working on and I’m REALLY hoping I can make it through this TBR. There’s also a few fun titles on my TBR I want to get into this month to somehow get me in the holiday spirit? I’m never actually in the “holiday spirit”. Christmas is my least favorite holiday and Winter is my least favorite season plus I’ve had some pretty shitty Christmases. December use to actually be my “dystopia” month, it started when I read The Hunger Games and Shatter Me in 2010/2009. But I figured this year I’d save the Winter/Xmas themed ones for December and see how it goes.

Man my bad mood is really just leaking all over this blog post, I’m sorry ya’ll. I’m just not having a good day lol.

| Health

I really want to set aside time to meditate again and start doing light yoga (idk how I’m going to meditate when it’s literally never quiet in this damn house). I also really want to go back to my previous diet of mostly veggies and greens. Lots of Tofu and Salmon. Just things that will make me feel better. I’m tired of always being tired and sluggish. I don’t know if it’s my diet or my medication. But either way, I just want to be healthier.

So there’s the short version of my December goals list!

What are some things you want to start or accomplish this month?

Hello November

Hello November

Show of hands of how many people are glad this dang year is almost over.

I have a few basic goals for this month… that mostly have to do with money, budgeting and flipping my shit because this is the time of year where I just want to go shopping, constantly. Though I’m wondering if the fact I choose to still stay away from malls will help ease that. Nah, probably not. Not when there’s stuff like Afterpay around online.

It’s almost the end of the month so there’s also prepping for holidays and yearly recaps. And hoping 2021 will be a shit ton better!

Continue reading “Hello November”

Happy Blogtober!

Who else forgot it’s now October?

I had planned to do Blogtober this year but I didn’t factor in that we were moving this week and how much mental space that would take, especially considering that our day of move was LESS than smooth. It was actually horrible. We came in a week earlier to figure out space and where to put things and noticed that the construction workers were using our fridge to store their lunches and apparently alcohol. When I went to return the key I told them about it and they said they’d have it all cleaned and sanitized.

On move in day nothing was cleaned or sanitized. I went and disinfected the whole inside of the fridge, the shower and the bathroom floors in the master bedroom. I haven’t cleaned anything in the guest room/bathroom yet since we’re still working on moving things in and there would be no reason to when it would just drive me crazy that everything is getting “dirty” again. We were also missing our microwave rotating plate and our hot water was off. Which we didn’t even notice until we went to take a shower at 330am. So yeah, we took miserable cold showers.

We’ve now moved everything from our old apt to our new one and omg, I had like 3 boxes of candles. Idk how I got to this point, honestly but I’m absolutely over it at this point. I have a hard time letting go of things but this is insane. I shouldn’t have 3 full boxes of candles. And that doesn’t even include the insane amount of wax melts I also found.

Moving really makes you realize just how much shit you have and how much you’ve held on to.

Continue reading “Happy Blogtober!”

Blogmas 2019 ↠ Hello December

I know, this post is super late today but I just didn’t have time to post it any earlier sadly.

And even now, the baby is sick with a cold (I hope it’s a cold) so she’s really clingy and feeling miserable.

I know blogging as been pushed to the side and even though I’m trying super hard to get back into my social media, it’s been a challenge. Throw in drama over a post and it pretty much destroyed any happiness I had linked to writing, especially on Facebook.

Continue reading “Blogmas 2019 ↠ Hello December”

Hello, April!

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I love Tulips.

I’d love if I could afford them right now too, but since I can’t. Picture taking will have to do.

It’s five days into the new month. Five D A Y S and bills are already fucking me. Ya’ll I’m so tired of paying bills. Like it’s not even funny how tired I am! I guess that falls back to me and past me and all the dumb shit past me was doing but then again I’m extra mad at past me for not telling those other dudes who were using me to get they own shit!

It’s my birth month and I’m never excited about my birthday. I mean I was pretty excited last year since Bubba was spending the week with me at Disney World but generally speaking, I’m never really excited.

I can’t do my usual traditions cause I’m not in Florida anymore. Also Bubba started a new job (which I’m really happy about) but he’s working on my birthday. I’m trying to be somewhat not a poopy pants about it but let’s be real, after I turned 25 without a BA in sight I was just like LORT ANOTHER YEAR OLDER. ANOTHER YEAR FAILED.

And that’s definitely NOT the way you should be viewing life.

Granted there’s nothing exciting about turning 33, still trying to rebuild your shit and yourself and thinking godammit I should get off FB with all these people and their careers and vacations. Which is why I’m never really on FB anymore. I post what I need to post, stalk who I need to stalk and get off!

This blog post wasn’t suppose to be about me, it was suppose to be about my goals for April.

⇢ Get your shit together (at least a little bit)
⇢ Read 3 books (and not on the last day of the month)
⇢ Blog more // I know shit can be hard but girl it’s your release SO QUIT IT
⇢ EXPLORE more, spend LESS
⇢ Apartment hunting
⇢ Tidy room & closet / purge shit you really don’t need
⇢ Sort digital stuff / back up laptop (since it’s been like years since you did)
⇢ Get RDM and AST to 60 on FFXIV
⇢ Find something that calms you
⇢ Practice better time management
⇢ Catch up on reviews that need to be written
⇢ Celebrate your birthday… the best you can

I know Bubba puts a lot of effort into everything. And I know it might be killing him that he can’t go all out on the day of my birthday this year and that the only thing I asked for was food adventures but I guess when you get older the experiences matter more than getting things. And normally I go on vacation for my birthday — which I was excited moving closer to the West Coast cause I really wanted to celebrate my birthday in Vegas & Disneyland like I use to when I lived in CA 7 years ago but that didn’t work out.

So this year I hope I find a new birthday tradition and I hope I find some enlightenment or motivation to get up and do something MORE. I mean I always want to do more but it’s actually doing it lately that’s the problem (which was never a problem before, so I’m confused as to why it is now).

So here’s to April; my personal restart button.