Well, hello June

Well, hello June

How are we 6 months into 2021 already? How the heck is time just flying so dang fast?? Kinda sus if you ask me. So here I am again, in June. The literal worst freakin month of the year for me. It’s the anniversary of a once was very special date, the anniversary of my Lolo’s (grandpa) death, the anniversary of my first pregnancy that ended pretty tragically and the anniversary of my divorce. Awesome, right? But it’s also the anniversary of Penny and Axelyn’s first date. Man I miss those (literal) cat’s. But not enough to spend $22/month to see her face. At least, not right now (she also lost her beach house sooo, I’m a little afraid to see her right now).

I spent a lot of June spacing out. Staying in bed and like… binge watching shows. Which I would LOVE to continue my annual pity party tradition but it’s a bit hard with a overly bubbly toddler pulling you around. All day. So, instead, I decided to literally pack my calendar with millions of things to do. Including getting my first massage. I went in for an adjustment last weekend after WEEKS of not getting one; and she said most of what was tense was from muscle tension. Say less; I’ve been telling myself to start doing spa days back in Jan anyway.

Here are a few things I hope to get done in June;

| Work on designing shirts & launching Etsy store
This is one I’m really really hoping I get done this month. I’m telling myself to come up with 2 designs for each fandom to launch with. It’s mostly finding the right combo of elements that’s really setting me back. I might be overthinking this. But I mean, overthinking something isn’t always a bad thing!

| Work on wax melts
This is another I hope to get to; I’ve been wanting to work with making wax melts since 2015 and just never had the GO to do it. I got a candle kit for review and I figured that was a sign from the universe to get on it.

| Work on selling and unhauling books
I have a ton of books from Owlcrate that I didn’t really care for when they came out or I didn’t even unwrap out of the plastic. From like, 2 years ago. If I haven’t read them yet, I probably won’t. So. They’re gonna go. I typically sell the ones I can at Half Priced Books and the ones I can’t or that get a low return I donate them.

| Refresh kitchen pantry & snack box
This is one B gets on me about literally all the time and I’m tired of hearing it lol. I’m a sucker for all snacks new and seasonal. And I need to start putting those snacks up on review on my food blog that really really needs to be built up already. SoPleaseReadMyFoodBlog. I’m doing better with clearing out the panty but I haven’t touched the snack box in the office yet. And I need to, because I think some of the stuff in the way bottom are expired.

| Work on typography
I’ve been working on this for the last week. I’ve always been in love with typography, quotes and fonts. So I decided to make some of my own. But for some reason now that I’m putting this in front of me, I can’t come up with any good quotes. Most of my “good” quotes came from word vomit blog posts in the past which brings me to…

| Keep up with journaling
I’m obsessed with the Noteshelf app on my Galaxy Tab. I literally write everything in there and it has so many pages to keep you SUPER organized. What I like the most is that the planner I have has a page under the daily stuff where you can write down notes and stuff. I use it to journal my day. And it’s become a habit that I’ve really been enjoying. I get to reunite with working on my hand writing and actually writing.

| Play 2 new games
Since getting my Galaxy Tab I’ve been downloading a bunch of really cute games and since I don’t have to worry about it deciding to not charge like my iPad sometimes does (more on that later) I feel a bit more comfortable playing games on it more. There are a few iOS games that I do want to play on my iPad and try out, so I’m hoping I can try a few more of these games I’ve downloaded this month. Also a few demo’s on the Nintendo Switch and start Stories of Seasons!

Normally I’d have “read x amount of books” but reading has taken a bit of a back seat lately and that’s fine. I don’t typically like reading unless I know I’ll have uninterrupted time to do so. I’m currently reading Jessica Simpson’s new e/audiobook and I’m still working on Dante Basco’s Rufio to Zuko. They’re both fairly short reads and I’m still struggling to get them read. Let’s not even begin on my NetGalley TBR, I’ve stopped logging on so I can finish the books I already have.

What are some things you hope to get to this month?

Hello May

Hello May

How is it we’re almost half way through 2021? How did that happen so fast? I know I missed one of these for April, there was just so much going on that I didn’t want to make myself a list of things I wanted to get done in case it didn’t happen. And I’m glad cause after our trip to Disney I was pretty much what felt like — but I’m sure couldn’t be — jetlagged for weeks. I felt like my head was stuffed with cotton and the only other time I felt like that was when I first flew to Florida from California in 2011.

I feel much better now and I’m ready to get back to work with writing ALL THE THINGS… or all the things Tums will let me. She’s moved on to waking up in her sleep when I’m trying to blog at night so, we’ll see how writing all the things goes.

I can’t think of anything major on our calendar for May besides you know… medical follow ups. Not sure if Tums is due for shots again or not, they haven’t notified us. But I find that her new PCP usually doesn’t.

With that said, I’m hoping to get back into writing again and reading some more. My NetGalley TBR needs help. And so does my actual physical TBR; I’m finding in 2021 my favorite genre’s are switching from fantasy to historical fiction. From YA to middle grade. I just haven’t been in the mood for a romance heavy series/read lately. But I’m finding as much as I love fantasy everything I haven’t really been reaching for fantasy titles. I’m even struggling with retellings which is insane. Is this a thing that just happens? Man, the more and more I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore.

Here’s a few things I want to get to in May;

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Hello March

Anyone else feel like Feb was just the longest Feb this year? I feel like it took forever for this month to end. But so much happened, I guess that’s why it feels that way.

There’s a lot of things that are suppose to be going on this month, so I’m hoping they actually happen. Tums birthday is this month, Easter is at the beginning of April, then my birthday. Thank goodness it’s NOT on Easter this year at least! There are a few book releases I’m excited about as well!

I discovered cozy gaming and looked more into ways to self improve in Feb, so I’m really excited about the things I’m planning in March — or at least as excited as a person who has to do shadow work can get (ain’t nothing exciting about shadow work).

March Goals;

〉 Work on getting my mic to work so I can stream Animal Crossing

〉 Fully plan Tums bday early

〉 Work on eating better and

〉Work on… well work

〉Fix iPad

〉Re-evaluate finances

〉Prep for Easter early

Middle GRADE March

〉Rebrand hazearella & gamearella

〉Gain 200 more blog followers

I’m trying not to overwhelm myself, esp since the next two months are generally really busy for me to begin with. But there are a few key things I do want to try and get done.

March Book Releases I’m Excited About;

There are so many new releases coming out in March! I know I forgot a few… I definitely forgot to include the one by Christina Lauren! But these are the YA reads I’m super excited about!

I’ll be doing Middle Grade March again this year. I’ll somehow find a way to squeeze some of these books in this month if not next. I know adding these to my already huge middle grade TBR is ambitious.

Here’s to hoping March will be productive!

What are some things you want to accomplish this month?

Hello February

This post is going up later than I had wanted it to; I think Tums has hit her terrible 2’s officially cause homegirl is acting like everything is worthy of a meltdown. Some even get several meltdown’s. Her and her dad haven’t been going to his mom’s house once a week like they usually do to give me “my day” because his family caught Covid so they won’t be over there for another few weeks. Or months. Whichever.

January felt both super long and kinda short.

There’s a ton of new releases this month I’m anxiously looking forward to. There’s also Lunar New Year coming up as well as my favorite holiday: Valentine’s Day. I don’t have any VDay tradition anymore… hard to have traditions in Texas honestly. Maybe it’ll be easier when Tums is older.

I spent yesterday working on my Twitch channel. I have to set up my capture card and Switch so I can stream Animal Crossing. But I miss streaming; hopefully a screaming toddler in the background won’t be too much of a problem lol.

I don’t have very many goals this month since I’m trying to be a bit more realistic about them in 2021;

| Start streaming set up

This falls under clean your damn desk as well. Cause right now, it’s a whole hot mess. I need to set up the capture card, the switch, the webcam and the mic. And find somewhere for this Wacom tablet that I use but don’t use. That I don’t really use but would really like to start using, pretty much. I love using Procreate more but it doesn’t hurt to learn how to use 2 different tools.

OFF TOPIC.

So yeah, tidy/clean desk and set that shit up. Like, this week. Like today. Or tomorrow. Or now.

| Tidy books

I don’t have bookshelves just yet. This seems to be an ongoing issue in my life. But I do have those IKEA shelves I had in the last room that acted like bookshelves. Do they hold all my books? Hell no. But I at least had them somewhat themed in the last room whereas in this room… I don’t even know WHAT is going on with them tbh. But whatever it is, it needs to stop. I also need to let some of these books go.

| Tidy office closet

FOR THE LOVE OF. It’s literally a straight up storage closet. I had originally planned to put some of Tums outside/off season clothing in there and obviously some office stuff. Maybe the printer just so it’s not in the way… but as of right now there’s no space on any of the built in shelves for anything. I need to consolidate of the boxes in there as well since they ALL just have clothes. There’s also a few baby baby things and some toys Tums doesn’t even play with anymore I need to get rid of. I get buying kids toys but I also… don’t? Like they don’t really play with all of them. And it really just ends up taking so much space + it’s just more shit for ME to pick up since I’m the one cleaning the most.

| It doesn’t spark joy? It’s gotta go

This has been a never ending goal of mine. To get rid of things that don’t spark joy. But I’m SO AWFUL with letting things go. I’m seriously the worst and every moving season I’m reminded of why am I like dis. But I really want an apartment that reflects that I’m you know, an adult. At least find a home for half this shit. Except the books. Cause again, no bookshelves.

Just thinking about this one is giving me anxiety. Ahh.

| Manage spending, for the love of… is there a finance god?

I read somewhere that some people are madd shopping online since the lockdown’s started happening cause it gives us SOMETHING to look forward to. And you know what, I felt that in my soul. But just because I feel things in my soul doesn’t mean I have to keep doing them. Not to mention Tums bday is coming up and so is mine so if I have any plans to get my shit together N O W would be an awesome time to start.

I need to reevaluate all my subscriptions as well cause shit is nuts. But what’s with all these apps that make you pay to use them? Like I get that I’m too lazy to open Photoshop up sometimes but goddamn. I’m not that lazy to pay $20 for a photo editing app?!

| Prep Easter posts

I always plan to be ahead of the seasonal game and sometimes I manage to do well. Other times, I’m finding, since being a mom, I don’t do as well. I have zero idea’s for Valentine’s Day themed posts for this year and I’m just gonna roll with that. I’m not gonna stress about it. If something hits me, cool. If not, cool too.

Easter however is slowly turning from my holiday to Tums’ holiday. This year she’s big enough to run around and find things. She’s also old enough to identify things. So thinking of covid friendly idea’s is def going to be something I’d like to write about. If not here, then on my motherhood blog!

| SKILLSHARE BITCH

Anyone else cuss at themselves to let themselves know they mean business? It’s like that line from Rap God by Eminem:

Full of myself, but still hungry
I bully myself ’cause I make me do
What I put my mind to

I found 2 months free of Skill Share in Dec? Jan? I don’t remember. Point is, the 2 moths are almost up if not already up. I have a bunch of classes bookmarked like Illustration, SEO, water coloring. There’s so many different classes to take! I really want to brush up on my SEO/social media stuff since it’s been awhile since I’ve really paid attention to it and basically this is how certifications become useless lol. So let’s not do that. I also want to learn illustration. They also have yoga classes, self improvement, manifestation, just a ton of other really cool subjects to choose from. And with this resource at my fingertips why not use it? Like no, seriously.

If you want to take a look at what all they offer here’s my code for 14 days free. No this isn’t sponsored but it’s 2021 and we’re in a pandemic, what do you have to lose?

What’s something you’d want to learn this month or this year?

Hello December

This post was suppose to go up yesterday, but it didn’t. And now today it’s going up late. I’m really kicking off December huh? To be fair though I did get this post up on hazearella at least. Though that was late as well.

It’s the LAST month of 2020. Thank. Freaking. Goodness! And I realized there are a lot of things I didn’t end up posting about. I’m not too into the idea of blogmas this year because I feel like I’m going to fail, again. But I will attempt to post more this month, including the book reviews I need to do!

If you want to see my detailed overly ambitious goals list for this month head over to hazearella. If not, keep reading!

| Blogging & Social Media

I’m thinking of giving up trying to perfect the ways of Instagram because holy shit is it just hard and not making sense anymore! But also I’m starting to feel like networking there is becoming impersonal. And that’s cool, whatever. Social media changes all the time, but it’s just not my cup of Coke. I do want to spend more time on Pinterest, Tailwind and Twitter. I wish I knew how Facebook pages worked cause that would be great too.

As far as blogging; I want to post everything that in the draft queue. Focus a bit more on talking about mental health and post a bit more about food on here. I know I have a whole different blog for that, but for some reason I just can’t seem to get it started. I really wish I had planned some Winter/Holiday content but a toddler and living somewhere with no friends or help and not an ounce of creativity in the air? Is rough. I usually surround myself with like-minded people. But I really dropped that ball several feet by moving to Texas.

| Reading

I have a NetGalley TBR I want to get at least half way through. There’s also 2 Dec titles in there. One I’m currently working on and I’m REALLY hoping I can make it through this TBR. There’s also a few fun titles on my TBR I want to get into this month to somehow get me in the holiday spirit? I’m never actually in the “holiday spirit”. Christmas is my least favorite holiday and Winter is my least favorite season plus I’ve had some pretty shitty Christmases. December use to actually be my “dystopia” month, it started when I read The Hunger Games and Shatter Me in 2010/2009. But I figured this year I’d save the Winter/Xmas themed ones for December and see how it goes.

Man my bad mood is really just leaking all over this blog post, I’m sorry ya’ll. I’m just not having a good day lol.

| Health

I really want to set aside time to meditate again and start doing light yoga (idk how I’m going to meditate when it’s literally never quiet in this damn house). I also really want to go back to my previous diet of mostly veggies and greens. Lots of Tofu and Salmon. Just things that will make me feel better. I’m tired of always being tired and sluggish. I don’t know if it’s my diet or my medication. But either way, I just want to be healthier.

So there’s the short version of my December goals list!

What are some things you want to start or accomplish this month?

Hello November

Hello November

Show of hands of how many people are glad this dang year is almost over.

I have a few basic goals for this month… that mostly have to do with money, budgeting and flipping my shit because this is the time of year where I just want to go shopping, constantly. Though I’m wondering if the fact I choose to still stay away from malls will help ease that. Nah, probably not. Not when there’s stuff like Afterpay around online.

It’s almost the end of the month so there’s also prepping for holidays and yearly recaps. And hoping 2021 will be a shit ton better!

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Happy Blogtober!

Who else forgot it’s now October?

I had planned to do Blogtober this year but I didn’t factor in that we were moving this week and how much mental space that would take, especially considering that our day of move was LESS than smooth. It was actually horrible. We came in a week earlier to figure out space and where to put things and noticed that the construction workers were using our fridge to store their lunches and apparently alcohol. When I went to return the key I told them about it and they said they’d have it all cleaned and sanitized.

On move in day nothing was cleaned or sanitized. I went and disinfected the whole inside of the fridge, the shower and the bathroom floors in the master bedroom. I haven’t cleaned anything in the guest room/bathroom yet since we’re still working on moving things in and there would be no reason to when it would just drive me crazy that everything is getting “dirty” again. We were also missing our microwave rotating plate and our hot water was off. Which we didn’t even notice until we went to take a shower at 330am. So yeah, we took miserable cold showers.

We’ve now moved everything from our old apt to our new one and omg, I had like 3 boxes of candles. Idk how I got to this point, honestly but I’m absolutely over it at this point. I have a hard time letting go of things but this is insane. I shouldn’t have 3 full boxes of candles. And that doesn’t even include the insane amount of wax melts I also found.

Moving really makes you realize just how much shit you have and how much you’ve held on to.

Continue reading “Happy Blogtober!”

July 2020 Goals

It’s been awhile since I’ve written a goals list but I figured I should start it up again!

How crazy is it that we’re more than half way through the year already?! That’s insane! But I hope the end of 2020 and the start of 2021 will be better.

Continue reading “July 2020 Goals”

Blogmas 2019 ↠ Hello December

I know, this post is super late today but I just didn’t have time to post it any earlier sadly.

And even now, the baby is sick with a cold (I hope it’s a cold) so she’s really clingy and feeling miserable.

I know blogging as been pushed to the side and even though I’m trying super hard to get back into my social media, it’s been a challenge. Throw in drama over a post and it pretty much destroyed any happiness I had linked to writing, especially on Facebook.

Continue reading “Blogmas 2019 ↠ Hello December”

Hello, April!

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I love Tulips.

I’d love if I could afford them right now too, but since I can’t. Picture taking will have to do.

It’s five days into the new month. Five D A Y S and bills are already fucking me. Ya’ll I’m so tired of paying bills. Like it’s not even funny how tired I am! I guess that falls back to me and past me and all the dumb shit past me was doing but then again I’m extra mad at past me for not telling those other dudes who were using me to get they own shit!

It’s my birth month and I’m never excited about my birthday. I mean I was pretty excited last year since Bubba was spending the week with me at Disney World but generally speaking, I’m never really excited.

I can’t do my usual traditions cause I’m not in Florida anymore. Also Bubba started a new job (which I’m really happy about) but he’s working on my birthday. I’m trying to be somewhat not a poopy pants about it but let’s be real, after I turned 25 without a BA in sight I was just like LORT ANOTHER YEAR OLDER. ANOTHER YEAR FAILED.

And that’s definitely NOT the way you should be viewing life.

Granted there’s nothing exciting about turning 33, still trying to rebuild your shit and yourself and thinking godammit I should get off FB with all these people and their careers and vacations. Which is why I’m never really on FB anymore. I post what I need to post, stalk who I need to stalk and get off!

This blog post wasn’t suppose to be about me, it was suppose to be about my goals for April.

⇢ Get your shit together (at least a little bit)
⇢ Read 3 books (and not on the last day of the month)
⇢ Blog more // I know shit can be hard but girl it’s your release SO QUIT IT
⇢ EXPLORE more, spend LESS
⇢ Apartment hunting
⇢ Tidy room & closet / purge shit you really don’t need
⇢ Sort digital stuff / back up laptop (since it’s been like years since you did)
⇢ Get RDM and AST to 60 on FFXIV
⇢ Find something that calms you
⇢ Practice better time management
⇢ Catch up on reviews that need to be written
⇢ Celebrate your birthday… the best you can

I know Bubba puts a lot of effort into everything. And I know it might be killing him that he can’t go all out on the day of my birthday this year and that the only thing I asked for was food adventures but I guess when you get older the experiences matter more than getting things. And normally I go on vacation for my birthday — which I was excited moving closer to the West Coast cause I really wanted to celebrate my birthday in Vegas & Disneyland like I use to when I lived in CA 7 years ago but that didn’t work out.

So this year I hope I find a new birthday tradition and I hope I find some enlightenment or motivation to get up and do something MORE. I mean I always want to do more but it’s actually doing it lately that’s the problem (which was never a problem before, so I’m confused as to why it is now).

So here’s to April; my personal restart button.