Brain Dump | Merry Christmas Eve!

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I feel like Christmas Eve came way too fast.

But I’ve also been disassociated for a few months now so… I’m sure that played a part in this whole thing. Sadly. We have a freeze warning here this weekend. I’m curious to know if it’ll snow. We don’t typically get snow until Jan/Feb so Dec would be super early. But judging how cold it’s been/going to be, I wouldn’t be surprised. I didn’t stock up on much cozies but we do have some cozy family things planned today.

Like making Hot Cocoa, watching Christmas movies and waiting to open Christmas gifts.

I typically can’t/don’t make it to midnight when it comes to Christmas or New Years Eve and with being in the third trimester now, I’m gonna go ahead and say it’s gonna be a struggle to get to midnight tonight lol.

I hope you all have a warm, safe and festive holiday weekend!

Blogmas ’22 | The Christmas Questions Tag

Blogmas ’22 | The Christmas Questions Tag

I got this from Deandra over at The Black Princess Diaries! If you haven’t heard of her, I suggest you check out her blog. She has a ton of fun lifestyle posts!

What’s your favorite Christmas movie?

Serendipity is my go-to for the holiday/Winter season. But A Christmas Story is my go-to for Thanksgiving. I don’t typically watch it any other time for some reason… I should probably change that. But it was a tradition for me and my brother to load up our plates and watch it all day on Thanksgiving growing up since we were usually home alone… and high.

Have you ever had a white Christmas?

I actually never touched snow until a year after Tums was born and it snowed here in Texas. It was a random day in January, then it snowed all day again on Valentine’s Day. You’re so close from a white Christmas Texas… yet so so far.

Where do you usually spend your holiday?

At home. Like in my own apartment. Preferably by myself lol. I’m not big on holidays or being around family really. Part of why I moved states away lol. The kiddo and her dad usually go spend the day with his family and we open gifts on Christmas Eve. Butttt that’s about the extent of my Christmas-ness.

What is your favorite Christmas song?

It’s between Mistletoe by Justin Bieber and This Christmas by Chris Brown.

And the music video that made me fall in love with Justin Bieber; All I Want For Christmas is You.

Do you open any presents on Christmas Eve?

Yup! And all the way up to King’s Day.

Can you name all of Santa’s reindeer?

I just went through a mental list and… that’s a no.

What holiday traditions are you looking forward to this year?

I’m currently sick + pregnant so my bloated ass isn’t trying to go outside in this cold lol. I did want to take Tums to see some light events around our area I’ve always wanted to do… we do plan on taking her to Sea World also, so hopefully we’ll all feel better by then to actually go do that.

Is your Christmas tree real or fake?

FAAAAKE! I did a real tree once and hated it! It didn’t even smell as strong as I thought it would and required maintenance. Then when it died.. holy dead needles. Never tf again.

What is your favorite holiday food/snack?

I’m not sure… it used to be Peppermint Bark but honestly I think I’ve only had 1 or 2 Peppermint Mocha’s this year. The Sugar Plum Cheese danish from Starbucks is pretty good oh and the Cranberry Bliss Bar! Non Starbucks snacks though? Other than my Hickory Farms favs I don’t really have one lol.

Be honest, do you like giving or receiving gifts better?

Receiving. I’m not gonna lie. Plus I think I suck at gift giving when aiming with a deadline. I’m better at seeing things in stores randomly and thinking “oh so and so would like this!”

What is the best Christmas present you ever received?

I’m gonna go with my Apple Pencil and my KitchenAid even though I’ve only used it once. I’ve wanted one forever.

What is your dream place to visit for the holiday season?

Disney World, duh. Or Disneyland since they have The Nightmare Before Christmas Haunted Mansion!

Are you a pro present wrapper?

Not really. Some things are way easier to wrap than others. And if I give up, in a gift bag you alllllllllllllllllllllll go.

Most memorable Christmas memory?

That one time in 2013 I completely cancelled Christmas because my husband at the time was a fuckin asshole. Okay maybe going to Disneyland for Christmas for the first (and only) time when I was 21. And maybe the Christmas before Tums was born. That was probably the best tree and best Christmas theme/aesthetic we had.

What made you realize the truth about Santa?

This one time I wanted marbles for Christmas. Like literally the only thing I wanted. I was probably 6 or 7? My mom kept saying she “talked to Santa and he said he didn’t have any”. I think she was scared I’d choke on them or something stupid. But my overthinking ass figured out Santa wasn’t real after that lol.

What makes the holidays special for you?

The fact I get to celebrate Christmas Day alllllooonneee doing nothinnnnnggg if I want to and eat ice cream and watch movies I grew up with all day.

Weekly Recap; Dec 13th -19th

What day is it? Cause I swear all week I’ve been behind 2 days at a time. How that’s possible? I have no freakin idea but as the parent of a toddler? Yeah, it definitely happens.

I was struggling with my mental health and with expressing myself. I just love how the closer we get to Christmas the more anxiety, dread and just I really don’t wanna be here/do this right now feeling comes back. I had the weirdest dream last night that my husband had some “small work party” yet it was like people were all over our 3 story mansion. I couldn’t even sneak away before someone else notices. I was going somewhere with this but I literally just dozed off writing that last sentence.

Hai guys, it’s now 1pm and I’m awake. I don’t remember writing any of that shit last night. But here we are lol.

I can’t believe Christmas is in a few days. I always feel like Christmas comes too fast. I still want to bask in the peppermint everything and the lights!

I tried to do OOTD photos for hazearella + having photos to post reviews about a clothing haul I did. That’s a Peppermint Marshmallow shake from Shake Shack. It was ok. This hoodie is from Shein and it’s cozy af. I love it. I just wish it had pockets. T is wearing a bunny raincoat I got her last Spring for Easter, it’s still super big on her. Thank goodness.

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Merry Christmas & Happy Blogmas Tag!

Rules:

  1. Thank the person who tagged you and link to their post
  2. Put the rules at the beginning of introduction
  3. Answer the 12 questions 
  4. Tag 12 people to do the tag 
  5. Create all new questions of your own to ask the people you tag.

Chocoviv’s Questions:

  • Favourite Christmas drink

Peppermint Mocha! Also Caramel Apple Latte from Starbucks

  • Favourite Christmas dessert

Cranberry Bark thing from Starbucks

  • Favourite Christmas movie

A Christmas Story, Serendipity, Misfit Island… there was one I watched last year but I don’t remember what it’s called! It was like Groundhog Day but for Christmas

  • Do you like going out in the cold?

I have anemia and eczema; I hate the cold

  • Do you like eggnog?

I think I’ve had it maybe once or twice? I don’t remember too much about it lol

  • Where is your ideal Christmas vacation?

Christmas at Disney was my fav when I lived/worked at Disney World but I’d also like to see real snow some day

  • Which book reminds you of Christmas?

The Night Before Christmas & If You Give a Mouse a Cookie. I didn’t grow up on The Nutcracker sadly.
YA books however I read Dash & Lily’s Book of Dares every Dec! I’m so excited it’s a Netflix show now! Also Hunger Games, Shatter Me and Matched remind me of Christmas.

  • Have you tried fruitcake? How was it?

I want to say I haven’t…. lol

  • Favourite Christmas dish

My Christmas dish tradition is Chinese take out!

  • Do you have a Christmas tree?

Yes! This year I have 3! I posted about the main one on hazearella this week!

  • Christmas song you are listening to…

It’s always All I Want For Christmas: Justin Bieber & MC. This is my favorite version of JB, he was so freakin cute. I would watch this video and “Beauty and the Beat” nonstop that year lol

  • Thoughts on Santa Claus?

I have a lot more questions than thoughts.

Story time! How I realized Santa wasn’t real:

When I was a kid there was this one year I wanted nothing but marbles. And I knew my mom thought they were a choking hazard even though why the hell would I put them in my mouth? And she told me “Santa just told me he ran out of marbles.” really mom? It was THE ONLY THING on my list. I’m still rolling my eyes when I think about this, 30 years later.

My Questions:

  1. What is your favorite thing about the holiday season?
  2. What was your favorite Christmas Tree?
  3. Favorite thing to do on a cold rainy Winter day?
  4. Favorite Holiday memory?
  5. Favorite Holiday snack?
  6. What is one thing you want to do this Holiday season?
  7. How has Covid changed your Holiday plans?
  8. Favorite Holiday Movie?
  9. Favorite Holiday Book?
  10. What’s on your movie queue for this month? Or your TBR?
  11. Favorite ice cream flavor?
  12. Are you excited that 2020 is almost over?

I’m Tagging:

My Week Recap; Nov 28th – Dec 5th

I want SOBADLY to bring this feature back to at least one of my blogs but it’s so time consuming and my Sunday’s (when I’d usually write them) is so packed with cleaning and prepping for the week. Today however, I’m going to attempt to do this even if it has to be the short version.

I managed to wrap, pack and ship 3 out of 5 holiday packages, before Dec 10th. THANK GOODNESS. My bank account may hate me, but whatever. I’d totally rather get it done early than scramble around like I usually do. There were so many new things at Bath & Body Works and I write all that kind of stuff on hazearella but I did grab hand soaps and body washes, my stores were completely sold out of candles for candle day/weekend which is nuts. I ended up exchanging my candles for store credit instead which is fine, do I really need more candles?!

This week has been a blur, but I feel like I spent a good amount of time just relaxing. I’ve been stressed out of my mind but you know, what can you really do?

Ironically one of my grocery stores has Peonies?! So of course I grabbed one. I also saw that Trader Joe’s has Calla’s but I forgot to grab one. Maybe next weekend. Tums found a new favorite show that has to do with a monkey get his ass whooped by other animals. It’s pretty funny but I don’t see how this is a show for kids. Tums seems to like it and I don’t know if I should be impressed or worried lol.

I also attempted to take more “Christmasy” pics of her for the Christmas card but I’m honestly at a loss at what I want the card to be. I wish we could do a family holiday photoshoot but Bubba doesn’t really like being in pictures. I will never understand what is it with guys and NOT wanting to be in photos, esp with their kids. It’s getting a little harder to take photos with Tums since all she wants to do is play, maybe this is why when people do family photos with a toddler it usually looks candid.

Our Hello Fresh* (here’s a code for $70 off) meal we made this week was Stuffed Bell Peppers and I really liked it. I ate everything, including the Bell Pepper which I usually don’t gravitate towards. Bubba also made me a homemade Peppermint Mocha with crushed up Candy Canes. He really went above and beyond with this one lol. It was so good. Like ridic how good it was, I had it two nights in a row! He also made Tums her own “Hot Chocolate” since she wanted my whipped cream lol.

Hit up my friend JR who I misssss! I love the friends that you can go months or YEARS not speaking to and falling back into conversation with them is just as easy as it’s always been. These are my types of people. Even if they all got jokes about me lol, can’t blame them, they’re 100% right lol. JR and I use to work at Six Flags together in Cash Control, so us and a bunch of other people spent 12-18 hours a day in a small room together counting money. Weird things happen when everyone is tired and hungry and just want to go home. But these people became friends and family to me and I’m so so glad I still talk to some of them even if it’s years apart. It reminded me of how much I miss being home in Cali and how much I miss being near friends and family. I miss knowing there were people there I could hang out with or just grab lunch with if I was in a bad mood. People who know how to read me and know how to handle my moods without judgement.

I never really feel lonely, ever. I’ve always been one to stay to myself and even though I have a lot of friends, I’m also good just being alone. But the longer I’m in Texas with absolutely no one who knows me that I’m able to hang around is really really starting to irritate my soul. I feel so isolated here. And my friends really do try super hard to make sure I don’t feel alone even if they’re in CA or FL but I also miss the vibes of those states. Texas feels like an angry mom who you have to walk around eggshells on and shit talks your every attempt to be creative. This is my least favorite state to live in. I don’t even feel like I can be 100% myself here without feeling like someone will have something to say.

Probably the root core of most of my anxiety and depression lately. Covid doesn’t fuckin help, at all.

Taking photos of a toddler is SO hard these days, like child just STOP moving for like 5 seconds. Tums got her rainboots I got her, they light up. She LOVES them. She’s been wearing them around the house like crazy every day since she got them.

Bubba got his advent calendar but he’s been giving them to Tums. Sigh. She’s ready to be potty trained as well and ironically I got a training potty for review. That I just had to stop mid blog post to put together since it came in. Looking at it now, it’s a kind of weird concept. So instead of changing diapers… I have to change this bowl thing?!

Yah this will be fun for my OCD, I can see it now.

How was your week?

Christmas 2018 🎄

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I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with Christmas ever since I was little — to the point where in my teen and early adulthood years it caused seasonal depression. My worst mental breakdown came around the holidays in 2014 which completely wrecked me mentally and I still to this day get hallucinations when I’m overly stressed; even if I feel fine.

So me and the holidays have never really had a very good or healthy relationship.

In the more recent years I’ve tried to focus on self traditions to find ways to enjoy the holidays because depressed or not the holidays are really a beautiful time of the year.

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My Christmas Wish List

I wish I knew how to do those cool all in one images for stuff like this, I feel like the format I use is sort of sloppy. Whomp!

This is the Christmas list I sent my fiance; I didn’t include the stuff off my list he already got me.

I just realized though — most of the things on my wish list is makeup… and food. I wanted to incorp more skincare items since I acquired a mysterious scar on my forehead that makes it look like someone tried to bite into it. I also wanted to incorp more house things. I need to revamp my apartment and my life, basically.

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Blogmas 2018~

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Okay, I kiiiiiiiiiiiinda might had forgot it’s blogmas/vlogmas… sooo we’re just gonna wing this.

Whoops.

I really had no idea or any set plans on WHAT to do or feature for blogmas; we had an upcoming trip but we cancelled it recently which sucks but life happens and sometimes there’s no way around that. The most you can do is plan better next time and clear your calendar for those plans.

December is always such a struggle month between various bills, renewals, holidays, freakin Christmas. It was easy when I spent the holidays alone and always planned to work on that day anyway… family holidays have always been a bit of a struggle for me.

Christmas has never really been a big holiday growing up; my mom had set traditions that she made sure we knew how important they were but majority of the time she spent Christmas Eve/Day working. So the “celebration” part and the “family” part had never really resonated with me. Now that I’m building my own family and the fact that Bubba has such a huge close family is a bit overwhelming to me. It’s not that bad but sometimes it still makes me a little uncomfortable, at least the thought does but once I get there they make feel comfortable enough to forget that part. For that, I’ll always be thankful.

We have a few Christmas themed stuff we want to do around the Dallas/Fort Worth area this month; I’m hoping to get a few different type of photos for my blogs. But I’m so awkward in front of the camera sometimes.

We also have some wedding and Baby Lo prepping to get done… actually a lot of planning and prepping is in our very close future lol.

Here’s to December: The things I’ll discover, learn, experience and hopefully find a few new favorite things!