Me and my bro have been really close since day 1. He’s the first dude to stand up for me in the drop of a hat. Don’t matter if I’m wrong or right, he’s got my back, period. And in all the years I’ve known him, he’s always been there for me. Period. Also probably one of the only Pisces I get along with. We both have a tendency to move around a lot so we haven’t seen each other since… 2007 I wanna say? But conversations with him always feel like a recharge to my soul.
There are moments, days, weeks where my closest friends will do something or say something to remind me how much they truly love and care for me. How absolutely unconditional it is and always has been. And I know I tend to forget that sometimes. I never forget that I’m never ever alone but sometimes I do tend to forget that there are a lot of people who would miss me if I were gone.
Stay close to those who makes you feel like you’re easy to love
Because no one should ever be around energy and around people who make you feel like you’re worthless and not worthy of transparency, love and support. I have found myself in those places one too many times and every time it’s taken a toll on my mental, spiritual, emotional and even my physical health and that’s not okay.
This week I’ll remind myself that no matter where I think I am in life, no matter how behind I personally feel I am, that there are people in this world that still think I’m worthy of everything I dream about. That there are people who know my past, who have lived it WITH ME that never factor it into anything negative. Would never use it as a way to say I’m a bad mom. That there are people who KNOW how much I hated kids and are happy to see how my daughter makes me light up. And that my friends love her just as fiercely as I do.
It’s Friday. I don’t think I’ve ever looked forward to a Friday as much as I have this week. I mentioned yesterday we are fully moved in. Have we fully unpacked? Kinda. Have we fully found a home for all of our stuff? Fuckin no. Do I want to throw away half my shit and just start over? Fuck. Yes. Speaking of, I need to go burn 3 Leaves candles this weekend. Nonstop. And go through my clothes and Tums clothes cause apparently I’m really bad at getting rid of her stuff as well.
And plus my husband said no ordering things until everything is done and has a home. And oh hell no he didn’t just say that shit to me. In October. Homeboi must had forgot who he married.
I had planned to do Blogtober this year but I didn’t factor in that we were moving this week and how much mental space that would take, especially considering that our day of move was LESS than smooth. It was actually horrible. We came in a week earlier to figure out space and where to put things and noticed that the construction workers were using our fridge to store their lunches and apparently alcohol. When I went to return the key I told them about it and they said they’d have it all cleaned and sanitized.
On move in day nothing was cleaned or sanitized. I went and disinfected the whole inside of the fridge, the shower and the bathroom floors in the master bedroom. I haven’t cleaned anything in the guest room/bathroom yet since we’re still working on moving things in and there would be no reason to when it would just drive me crazy that everything is getting “dirty” again. We were also missing our microwave rotating plate and our hot water was off. Which we didn’t even notice until we went to take a shower at 330am. So yeah, we took miserable cold showers.
We’ve now moved everything from our old apt to our new one and omg, I had like 3 boxes of candles. Idk how I got to this point, honestly but I’m absolutely over it at this point. I have a hard time letting go of things but this is insane. I shouldn’t have 3 full boxes of candles. And that doesn’t even include the insane amount of wax melts I also found.
Moving really makes you realize just how much shit you have and how much you’ve held on to.
This is my second Fall in Texas and I’ve been searching for more and more events and things to do during the Fall time. I spent 5 years in Florida and while I love love love the 90º year round I’m also slightly excited to be in a place that has a REAL Fall — despite my hate for cold rainy weather.
I don’t know why I just stumbled on this place a few months ago (via an Instagram ad at that)! Last year they themed it OZ! OZ! And my heart breaks a little that I had no idea This year’s theme is Neverland which, I can also get down with. I peaked the location tag on Instagram and the grounds look gorgeous! I’m not sure what to expect but I have the cutest outfit ready and set to take a million pictures of the Baby Lo bump and of course me!
I know they also have an afternoon Tea Time here but only Mon-Fri and since Bubba works during the week it’s going to be a bit difficult to be able to attend one; but from looks of it they also set up the place nicely for Christmas as well! So, we’ll see!
NORTHPARK CENTER’S PUMPKIN PATCH
Northpark is one of my favorite malls in Dallas — actually in all of the DFW area! This place is my absolute weakness! We were just there last weekend and now that I think about it, the place was completely decked out in cornstalks and pumpkins. It was some kind of magical! I didn’t see the outside bits since we usually park in the parking garage but we may be able to stop by here again one more time before they take it all down and I’ll definitely take a bit of advantage of that and wander the grounds outside to see if this is out there!
I haven’t been to a proper Pumpkin Patch since I was a child. There is something ultra Fall about a Pumpkin Patch! Granted I don’t really dabble in carving pumpkins anymore… now that I’m older I see how messy the whole process can be and I’m just not about that life lol but it’s always fun to see all the different shapes and sizes of Pumpkins. Is that weird to say?!
TEXAS STATE FAIR
It has always been on my bucket list to visit the Texas State Fair! I remember years ago I’d watch segments on it on The Food Network and how EVERYTHING there was deep fried, this was before that trend started to spread nationwide at least as far as I knew.
Last year I got to go for my first time and we went on the last weekend of the fair which made it pretty crowded and hectic but there was SO much to see and do! As you can see from the photo it was also cloudy and had rained earlier that day. I’m hoping this year will be bright and warm!
There’s a few new snacks that were added to this years line up and I have a few of them on my list of foods to try. Besides that there’s so much of the fair I didn’t get to see the last time we were there that I hope to see this time!
Maybe this time I’ll actually grab a map lol.
RAMEN EXPO USA
A random event I had stumbled on while scrolling through Facebook is the Ramen Expo! I had no idea things like this happened and happened in Texas at that! This gives you the chance to taste test different types of Ramen from broths to noodles and everything in between! I don’t know too much about it just that it’s RAMEN and it’s an EXPO, I mean how cool is that?!?
DALLAS WATER LANTERN FESTIVAL
I’ve always wanted to do one of these and I thought you could only do them in other countries! Imagine my surprise when I found out you can do them here as well!
Tangled was one of the first movies Bubba and I watched together so stuff like this has a special spot in my soul! Though I think the date of this event may clash with another event we had planned, whomp! But I’m still holding out hope I get to see this happen!
FW BOTANIC GARDEN AUTUMN AFTERNOON TEA
Another tea event I randomly stumbled across that takes place in the Fort Worth Botanic Garden. I’ve passed by this place a few times but have never actually been yet. Thankfully this tea event is on a Saturday! But we’ll see what Bubba has to say; it sound fun!
What are some fun things you’re looking forward to doing in your area this Fall?
I’m part of the many people who wait all year long for Fall!
When I lived in Cali I loved feeling the change of seasons (and Fall meant those big fat spiders who don’t even spin webs and just sit in corners and pop up in bathtubs would go away), the leaves changing colors, the crisp cool air was probably my fav part of it all. Like the air just felt different! I can never describe it exactly as it’s more of a feeling than a thing. But that shift is my fav.
When I moved to Florida and started working for Disney I noticed we don’t get a Fall. Sure the decor in Magic Kingdom changed to reflect the yellows, oranges and reds. There were Mickey pumpkins hung under every light post. And the display windows showcased Mickey and Minnie in their traditional Halloween outfits.
Despite the fact that Fall doesn’t exist in those parts, it never stopped me from cranking up my AC, decking out my apartment, planning for Mickey’s Not So Scary Halloween Party (though running around and Trick or Treating in 90º weather makes you sweat, quickly) and watching my usual Fall movie line up!
Now that I’m in Texas I finally get to enjoy some kind of Fall at some point… even though it’s still around 80º here right now. But Fall is coming! I can feel it!
And of course Fall/Halloween photoshoots with Axelyn with Penny are my favs around this time of the year!
Throwback to my counter placement in 2015 — even though Florida doesn’t believe in Fall.
It’s finally October!
Which is the most wonderful time of my year!
This year I decided to participate in #BLOGTOBER as I usually do but I also wanted to do what I did last year as well which was make a weekly VLOGtober weekly recap. Sadly I wasn’t able to prep for Blogtober the way I usually do since September was eaten up by nausea and a crap ton of morning sickness! Which may come as a surprise since I haven’t announced it yet that I’m pregnant but ‘ll get into that later in the week.
But because of that I’m also wayyy behind of decorating my apartment for Fall as well, it’s already OCTOBER and I don’t have ANYTHING set up yet! It’s definitely giving me a stronnng sense of anxiety since I usually start up late July/Early Aug. Which I thought to this year but morning sicknses hit me RIGHT AFTER, sigh.
So, between writing daily blog posts and coming up with product shots and all this and that, I’m also working on tidying up my apartment and setting up for Fall with the few weeks I have left to enjoy it before having to take it all down for Winter. These seasons are just WAY too close together!
What are your plans for this month? Are you going to participate in Blogtober?