How are we already in the 8th month of the year? And while this year has been one of the hardest for me, I’m hoping the -ber months will be much kinder. Key word there is hoping. Life is made up of choices and micro choices and as an adult, the micro choices seem to be kicking me more than the actual choices.
My #onelittleword for this year was boundaries and while I think I’m doing fairly well with it, I feel like I could be doing more. Building “the life you love” is definitely not as easy as the damn quote makes it sound.
I don’t even want to look at my July goals, I know I didn’t achieve any of them. Sun Haven had me and my time. I’m not complaining. I’m ready to do a few guide posts on my gaming blog about it. I’m pretty sure I won’t achieve the things I want in August (or in my life, if we’re being real here) but I do have one huge goal that I won’t be mentioning because I find that mentioning bigger goals, in the life I live now, almost makes it so that it 100% doesn’t happen. I miss being younger. And living in Florida. And feeling like the world was in the palm of my hand. Now I just feel like the girl who rejected the skater boy.
Sorry, I’m usually pretty kawawa af in postpartum. I hate it here.
| Blog 1-2 times a week
I’ve had this blog for 5? 6 years now? I don’t even know. All I know is I started this blog after my miscarriage to get away from people who knew about my blog at the time. This was originally suppose to be blog focused on travel, Disney and gaming. And for awhile this was my safe place. Until it wasn’t. And since then I’ve been hesitant to write anything too personal. And that’s a damn shame. I’ve been blogging since 1999 and blogging has really changed since then.
I really miss blogging. And I think about it all the time. I just lack the energy and inspo to write about anything. But if there’s anything I learned about being a content creator for the last 18 years, it’s that if you don’t have inspo, find that shit. It’s there. You just gotta get tf up and look.
| Sort through emails
On that same note, I’m usually good at keeping my main email accounts to under 100 unread. Since getting pregnant this last time, my main email is at 8k unread. I don’t even… wanna talk about it.
| Play 1 new game
This is probably the one thing I managed to do with my goal from last month. I played both Sun Haven and Coral Island last month. I grabbed a handful of games from the Steam Wholesome event. Have I mentioned I’m in love with my Steam Deck? This thing is the best thing ever.
| Play through Steam demos
Does anyone else just casually scrolls through the Demo or the Early Access tab on Steam..? It’s a dangerous place. That’s all I’m saying.
| Gaming reels/TikTok’s
I’m awful at doing reels. I just… I don’t get it! Half the time I don’t even like watching them myself! But as social media changes so does the type of content. I have a few I want to film but filming with your phone when it comes to reels is a bit more of a challenge than just making a full blown YouTube video. How that makes sense, I’m not sure. But I said what I said.
| Try meditating again bitch, you need it
On the personal side of life, a lot is a mess. I mean, it doesn’t have to be. This is where the boundaries thing comes in. Too much crap is taking up my mind space and while I’ve always been like this, I literally don’t have the time or energy. Esp while having to watch and raise 2 little girls. I’m busy, I don’t have time for useless emotions, events, and opinions.
I’ve let go of daily (even weekly) self care. And I regret that I don’t make more time for it anymore. But I really need to make it a priority again. At least light some Sage, shit. Something.
| CLEAN YOUR GD DESK
FOR THE LOVE OF WHOEVER YOU WORSHIP. PLEASE.
I got this great gaming desk and it’s not organized or designed the way I wanted it to be. It will never make sense to me how things are magically 2x harder with a toddler. Or how many times I come into the office and find her toys on my desk. Or my snacks raided like a fuckin squirrel has been in here. Literally, I never know what I’ll see when I walk into the office.
I haven’t even started on Fall decorating and it’s August now. I usually start in early July.
I need this to be my clean, organized, aesthetically pleasing space. Like come on man, do better.
What are some of your goals for this month?