I noticed I don’t really have many helpful posts on this blog which are things most people search for or are drawn to; me included! I love writing about my personal experiences and expressing myself but also I want to be able to help people. One of my goals this year was to build a space for myself where I could open and freely talk about Postpartum Depression and I created a blog specifically for that. Maybe some day I’ll feel comfortable enough to share it across all my other media’s but for now, I’m still paranoid my in laws are stalking my stuff so… there’s that.
I’ve been blogging since 1999. I started on Opendiary then TeenOpenDiary (which is still one of my favorite platforms looking back) then moving on to LiveJournal, Xanga and DeadJournal. I also dabbled in the random LiveJournal-like blog platforms like Blurty (which I’m so sad shut down before I could download my entries) and the like. Then settled into BlogSpot for awhile. I also blogged on Vox which was a great platform and of course both WordPress.com and WordPress.org.
Originally I started a blog because I was tired of my mom reading my diary.
When I was around 6 my dad bought me one of those kid diaries where it came with a literal lock. My mom hated that. She was a bit controlling and extremely nosey when I was a kid and felt like she was entitled to read my diary since I lived in her house. And that’s something I constantly struggled with growing up. There were times the things I’d write in my diary got me in trouble. One particular one was where my brother had done something and I took the blame when it wasn’t my fault and how he gets away with everything. I was maybe 8 or 9 when I wrote that. And as I got older it got worse but in that specific time frame I got in so much trouble for just saying he gets away with everything.
I know it’s been quiet here the past week. My intention was to study up on Pinterest marketing and learn all I could about Pinterest ads since I don’t exactly know how to get it to drive traffic to my blog. I posted a bit on my hazearella IG, gotta post all those Spring/Summer product shots before I move into the Fall stuff. I’m also trying to work out a post sched for this blog. I had originally planned to post 3x a week with 2 of those posts being weekly features (such as this one and Monday Mindful Manifestation leaving 1 post open for whatever else. Seemed organized enough but I’m working on the networking part of blogging also.
Anyway, I hope you all had a great week! It’s finally the weekend though with Covid it hardly feels like anything to celebrate or plan for anymore.
Geez, I’m just dark today I guess. ON TO THE LINKS.
I stumbled on a blog post from writing from nowhere where she created a series of inspiring quotes in wallpaper format.
This one is currently my lock screen wallpaper. I use to change mine out every week with a new quote; it definitely helped me keep myself accountable and focused on my goals. I should start that up again!
It’s been awhile since I’ve done one of these and tbh most of the stuff I’ve been bookmarking/screenshotting is either Animal Crossing design codes or new snacks I wanna try.
The lock down is starting to get to me; only because Fall is right around the corner and I won’t be able to freely run around and do all the fun Fall things I wait all year for. So here’s to hoping the second Animal Crossing Summer update is gonna be epic + there will be tons of new snacks and products to try!
I remember to do this dang post lmao. I have no idea why I tend to forget about it all the time when I’m constantly bookmarking either blog posts to read later, come back to later or ones I just find interesting. I thought to create this weekly feature to share some of the blog posts I’ve found during the week!
I know with the whole world-on-lock-down going on a lot of us are having to cancel and miss out on things we’ve been looking forward to like vacations and celebrations. A few of my friends had to cancel their weddings and we had to cancel Tums first birthday celebration (though I think I’m going to do a Facebook Live of it, not sure yet) as well as my birthday celebration to Vegas (after not being back there in 9 years, sigh).
Despite that I’ve actually been really into looking at travel blogs and travel pinterest accounts as inspo for where I want to jet off to next… and dream about going on vacation lol.
I can’t believe I’ve had Places + Peonies for two years now!
I definitely haven’t posted as many blog posts as I wished I had when I started this blog and obviously my Instagram feed isn’t what I had imagined either. I think I put too much pressure on myself to have the perfect feed which I’m sure many of us are guilty of the same expectation.
I started this blog as a place to talk about mental health, gaming, traveling and to just be myself. To talk about the things I couldn’t talk about on hazearella anymore cause it turned into this beauty/candle blog. And I told myself I wouldn’t try to be perfect here. Yet, here I am. Expecting exactly that!
In the last two years though I have opened up about things I never really got the chance to talk about especially regarding my past and things I still need to face and come to terms with. In the last two years I’ve also made this into a DOT COM blog and sort of decided on a slightly new direction for it.
It’s hard to not incorporate my mom stuff here sometimes just because I have a different blog for that; but also because I AM a stay at home mom so most of the things I want to talk about on a day to day basis are about motherhood or just about the baby. I try to slip in a post here and there, just so she has some sort of something here but I try not to do it too often.
So what do I hope to accomplish in the next year or so here?
I also hate how out of order my posts are going to be for the next month; I still have one or two 2018 posts I want to write but I’ve already started writing 2019 posts. Whoops.
For one of the last trips to Dallas in 2019 I wanted to try a French bakery that I’ve had my eye on pretty much all year — Bisous Bisous Pâtisserie which is located in Uptown Dallas. I won’t be reviewing the bakery in this post, I’m saving that for a different post cause it deserves its own post. Trust me.
I’ve wanted to change the content for hazearella (my lifestyle/makeup/candle blog) for a few years now but never had the drive to make the content or take the pictures I wanted. So I decided on this day, I was going to.
I wanted to start 2019 with being the blogger I always wanted to be; to my surprise when I pitched this idea to Bubba his only response was: “F I N A L L Y.” Gotta love a man who supports your passions!
I’m still working on not being camera shy and I’m still working on how to pose for photos. I’m so use to being behind the camera and when I’m not, I’m usually turned around or taking a selfie.
I hope in 2019 I’m able to let go of these small silly insecurities. That I’m able to express myself more and be okay with the fact that no matter how hard I try sometimes my makeup isn’t going to always be perfect. Or that not every photo will be perfection. But I hope to post it all anyway. I hope to have fun with it. I hope to fall in love with lifestyle blogging the way I always dreamed and wanted.
I also hope to learn how to dress myself like a human being as well! I told myself no hoodies in 2019 (I mean of course there’s certain exceptions but for the most part if we’re going OUT OUT, no hoodies). I use to put effort into dressing nice and doing my hair and putting on makeup; I want to get back into that habit again.
Because it made me feel good. It made me feel awake and alive. It made me feel productive. And with a baby on the way — I’m sure you can assume how drained and blah I feel on a daily basis. Pulling yourself out of that is hard; but I don’t want to end up like those mama’s who can’t find time to take care of themselves and end up blaming the baby.
Baby Lo is here to enhance my life. Not take over it. Not change it. Not take things away from me. But add on that extra encouragement. The extra smile and laugh while I figure out this new chapter in my life that’s coming up quick!
I wish I knew how to do those cool all in one images for stuff like this, I feel like the format I use is sort of sloppy. Whomp!
This is the Christmas list I sent my fiance; I didn’t include the stuff off my list he already got me.
I just realized though — most of the things on my wish list is makeup… and food. I wanted to incorp more skincare items since I acquired a mysterious scar on my forehead that makes it look like someone tried to bite into it. I also wanted to incorp more house things. I need to revamp my apartment and my life, basically.