Monday Mindful Manifestation

I know ya’ll, I’m really slacking on the blogging thing. I know it’s been almost a month since the holidays but I’m still feeling a little spacey. Anyone else? I guess I just haven’t been filling my days enough and I haven’t really started working on my goals… I also haven’t put that post up. Well damn.

I am a bit distracted this week because I’m going to be going home for a few days while my mom is recovering and after I come back from that I’ll be moving into a new apartment. So there’s a lot of packing going on this week! I’m really hoping I can manage to get it all done. Or close to done.

I really want to be better with blogging again, even if it’s just 3 posts a week. I don’t know why this is so difficult to achieve lately. I really need to get back on my self care game. I haven’t even Saged in I don’t know how long! Which reminds me, I need to get Sage for the new apartment. I’m sure there’s no bad vibes in there but still, it’s just a thing, I guess.

I know this saying is pretty basic; but it’s something that I feel applies to this week. I haven’t been home in ten years. That means I haven’t seen some of my friends in 12-15 years. I am SO excited to be able to see them. I know a lot has changed since the last time I was in Cali and I’m both excited and nervous to see what those changes are.

I’m not sure what chances I’ll stumble on while I’m home. But I’m hoping something for my business will present itself. Speaking of, I really want to expand my shop and my range of products but I’m not exactly sure with what. And I’m finding that while Print On Demand CAN be “easier”, you lose a lot of the control as far as shipping and you’re limited in design. The upside however is not having to store all the products yourself and also not having to deal with shipping. I have a weird love/hate relationship with shipping.

I’m already tired just thinking about this week. Hope you all have a good one!

What is something you want to manifest this week?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

I low key didn’t realize today was Monday. I’ve had a migraine since yesterday. Gotta love PMS.

I stumbled on this while scrolling through Canva for some inspo. Beyond being a great blogging resource, their template gallery has some really cool inspo!

I have mixed feelings about this quote though; on one hand, I get it. But on the other hand, I don’t want to bend or break. I don’t want to bend to make someone else comfortable if it means making me unhappy. But there are moments where if you don’t bend, you’ll break. Even if you don’t want to do either.

Am I being too cryptic? I really wish I didn’t have to be.

But this is def something I’ve been struggling with since maybe August. Or June. If I’m being honest.

I’m tired of keeping the peace just for the sake of peace whatever that even means any more. I’m tired of having to put my dreams and goals on hold because it makes someone else uncomfortable. I have a solid belief of doing the things I want because life is too short and too short to wait for permission from someone. I’m too free spirited to stay in one place for too long or be told what I can and can’t do.

That’s not to say I would never bend, but I refuse to if it means selling myself short of the things that make me happy or feel alive.

Not just for this week, but for this year; I’m manifesting the strength to be my authentic self and doing what my soul tells me to do.

Recap 2021; Best Of

The Best Of 2021. There’s a ton of things I stumbled on this year that I loved and there’s a few things I know I’m missing. I typically make one of these every year but I don’t really blog about them, I just post them on IG or something. But this year I wanted to recap a few things and a few favorites I had. 2021 was such a weird year I’m sure for a lot of us. We finally got to taste a bit of freedom again. And man did that feel so good!

Entertainment

I admit, I didn’t get to read as many books or see as many movies as I had hoped to. I did manage to finally see Hamilton and even though I knew most of the songs already before watching it, I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would. The soundtrack has been playing nonstop in my head and in my life daily since like October. I did catch a bit of the movie my friend Nicolas Dromard (he was the SF Fiyero a few years back) is in! It’s on the Hallmark Channel. I had hoped to watch more Christmas movies on the Hallmark Channel and just in general but that didn’t really work out. I get pretty much just one day a week to myself where no one bothers me and I’m always aware of how fast that day goes.

As for tv shows there were a few I had wanted to get to. I did binge Schitt’s Creek. I’m currently on the last 2 episodes and I don’t want it to end honestly. That show was everything I didn’t know I needed in my life. Seriously. I am *IN LOVE* with that show. Other than that, Tums was on an all Bluey kick for a good few months. And for a “kids” show there’s some really valuable advice for parents in those episodes. But I truly believe everyone needs a dad like Bandit. He’s parenting goals, foreal.

I’m going to make a totally different post about all the favorite music I had, I put down You Got It by Vedo since it was one I was listening to pretty much all year. But there are a few others that were also on constant repeat all year.

I didn’t hit my goal of 25 books in 2021 but I did manage to finish The Cassidy Blake series and for a middle grade it’s so good. If you’re into historical fiction and quirky characters, I’d def recommend! My favorite of the series has to be Tunnels of Bones because it takes place in France and the history behind things I didn’t know about Paris was so fascinating! I had messaged my friend who was born and raised in France (who I worked with at Disney) if things were true. I would also live message him while watching Emily in Paris which I never finished. I should though, at some point.

While I bought a ton of new games, I didn’t really play much of them. I started playing Stardew Valley and it is a lot more demanding than Animal Crossing, and the opening tutorial for SDV can get a little confusing. Plus the graphics are really something I need to get use to. I have been religiously playing a game called Solitaire Farm on my Galaxy Tab. It’s such a cute game where you can unlock new items to upgrade your farm with and the challenges are actually really fun to complete! I should write about it some day. I really miss playing games and new games, I really want to make more time to do that in 2022.

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#onelittleword 2022

Hello 2022.

I had such a hard time picking a word for 2022 cause there were just so many good ones that could apply to this year. But one thing I really want to focus and work on is finding balance.

Finding balance between work and rest. Between motherhood and me time. Between just adulthood and making time to see my friends, wherever they are. Finding the balance of stress and ease. And accepting that this will be a journey. Not a destination. I want to learn to how to find the balance to where my life doesn’t feel so… hectic all the time. I miss having the time and energy to just create or game and I want that feeling back, it’s def hard with a clingy toddler but we’re both going to have to figure this out, together.

I have other resolutions… or intentions. I’ll be making a whole different post about that though. There’s a lot I have planned for 2022, but literally, right now, even after having coffee all I want to do is nap for another hour lol.

Here’s to 2022!

Brain Dump | Goodbye 2021

I had hoped to have all of this week’s blog posts formatted and ready to be posted but that didn’t happen. I love doing recap posts just to see how my year went, so I’ll probably be posting those all through January if I can get them done.

My BFF is super prompt on the whole “sooo, what’s on your resolutions list?” I honestly haven’t really given it much detailed though this time. I was trying to write one up this morning and I just couldn’t really think of anything. Or I just want to see where 2022 takes me. A bunch of stuff on my 2021 resolutions list didn’t happen… but far better things did happen. And while I can set my intentions for 2022, I really want to see what happens if I don’t bind myself to resolutions. I am still doing #OneLittleWord and I think I settled on a word already.

Okay just kidding, I wrote a list just to have something to send to my BFF lmao. I want to focus on doing more shadow work. On healing cause I’m not that boring as I think I am without my sarcasm and dark jokes either. And because Tums deserves the best version of me, always. I want to work on not holding on to things or people that don’t deserve a space in my life, energy or mind space. I definitely want to make big money moves for my shop… I don’t know what that means exactly but we’re gonna figure it out!

I’m realizing my friends think the world of me and my ability. I’m realizing that they believe in me more than I could ever imagine. They’ve been sos supportive since I opened my shop and it just gives me warm fuzzy feelings… and makes me want to go home even more. I want to see myself how they see me. I want to believe in me like they believe in me — and I use to — I don’t know why I stopped. I don’t know why outsiders opinions leave you heavy when you know they don’t know you. That’s also something I really want to change. I know me. My circle knows me. My daughter knows me. And that should be enough.

2021, you were a relief after the shit I had to deal with in 2020. I found my footing again. I started to move back into who I know I am. I made changes. I made things happen. I chased ridiculous dreams and it came out amazing. I grew closer to people that bring so much value to my life. I fell into something I didn’t know I wanted until it happened; and it’s been such a refreshing and amazing feeling. It’s not easy and it’s not going to be easy, but it is worth it. I got to go home, twice. And that alone made 2021 the best.

I ended up getting COVID, and my friends sent me get well gifts for no reason. And I can’t even put into words how that made me feel. I’m so lucky. I lost my best fur baby, and I miss her every single day. But I’m thankful she’s no longer in pain, she’s no longer silently suffering. I did what I said I would do — give you a life full of love for as long as you had left. And you weren’t just loved by me, but literally every other person who had the pleasure of meeting you. You were loved by people states away who loved seeing photos of you. You were loved by so many people and I’m so happy I got to give you that. I will forever miss your thump tail hugs. I will forever miss you.

My daughter grew into more of a person. She’s only 2 this year but her growth has been so amazing to watch. Seeing how fast she can learn and learning things that she loves has been such a joy to watch. She started talking in complete sentences and now has the ability to actually have conversations with us. She is SO polite. She says “bless you”. She says “thank you” for everything. She says “oh haha, sowwie!” when I tell her she dropped something. She also cleans up after herself. She’s such a mama’s girl, for sure and she loves to just hang out with me or has to constantly have to be touching me somehow. I love that I’m her comfort, but I’m also SO overwhelmed about it as well. I guess there’s no way around either end of the spectrum.

I made new friends through blogging and social media and I am so thankful for them. There are some crazy amazing, inspiring and creative people out there. And staying around those who have the same goals as you is such an inspiring thing.

Seasonal depression might had hit me hard this year, but I also experienced so much love and happiness despite it. And I owe this year to the people who stood by my side through everything. Who constantly gas me up and who will stay up listening to me vent for as long as I need to.

So to my circle; thank you a million fuckin times. You guys have my heart.

To the people I managed to make new connections with through the blog and social media; I am so proud of all the accomplishments I got to witness you achieve. I’m glad you’re in my life.

To my BFF’s; I don’t even know how to begin thanking you. But even through disagreements and low key fall outs, it’s the way we fell back together that really matters. Knowing that even if you were upset with me and taking your space, didn’t mean you stopped thinking of me or caring about me and that means SO much. I know I’m not anywhere close to perfect. I know I made some DUMB ASS choices and I’m glad that you guys are there to call me out on it. D A I L Y.

If 2021 is any indication of what lies ahead for me, I’m so ready to meet 2022.

Monday Mindful Manifestation

That’s it.

That’s the whole message this week.

Did I finish wrapping and sending out xmas gifts? Nah. Are my mom’s, brother, and 2 friend’s gifts gonna be late? Fuck yeah.

I’m just gonna sit here and ignore the fact I feel like I was unprepared for Christmas this year. Because honestly once it hits October don’t expect me to be on top of any A game for anything. One of these years I’ll get my productivity back on track — even in my seasonal depression months. My BFFF says I need to stop cussing in my writing, fuck you bruh just kidding. You’re adorable. I appreciate you. Endlessly. But I had to. Lol.

This week I want to manifest sanity and avoid headaches lol.

Wishing you all a calm and festive week ahead!

Monday Mindful Manifestation

Anyone else feel a little bit rushed at the fact that Christmas and New Years are just way too close to each other? Like dang, can we get some time to recover from Christmas?!

Happy New Years week!

My BFF texted me on Christmas Eve asking if I had my resolutions list ready yet. Tbh she’s later than usual asking me this but my mind has been a foggy mess since November so it wasn’t something I had really put any thought or anything into just yet. I’m now reminded that I need to get on that this week. Along with whatever else last minute 2021 things I set for myself like: creating space for new things by getting rid of things I don’t need. Or catching up on all my recap blog posts. Oh and reading 7 books. Which seems like a small list now but it entails a lot of detail.

I also have to get a start on what I want to release for 2022 on the shop. This is one I’ve been working on but I’m coming up blank. At least I got to catch up on A LOT of sleep this weekend. Thank goodness for that.

This week I want to manifest;

Getting my ass in gear and to do my best to finish all the last minute 2021 things I need to get done.

What are your plans for this week? Or for the New Year? Have you started your resolutions list yet?

Recap 2021; #OneLittleWord

I’ve been doing #OneLittleWord for a few years now. I think since 2015. I legit don’t know what to make 2022’s word cause I feel like I’ve done all the ones I really wanted to do lol.

The word for 2021 was Courage.

I love how every year I say “it’s my year“.

This year wasn’t so bad as far as accomplishments go, and honestly I think I did super well with keeping my #OneLittleWord in mind. Wish I could change those blog links though lol.

I had hoped that 2021 would be vastly different from 2020, and I’m sure I’m not the only one who felt this way either. I just wanted to pack my 2021 with as much adventure and healing as I could… and though I’m still on this journey, I’m so thankful for the steps I did take to get here this year!

I got to travel to Florida (home) twice this year. I am so so thankful for that! Got to see my BFF after not seeing her for 15 years and we took our first Disney trip together; one of the best memories we have together and we’re counting down until our next Disney trip! I got to hang out with a friend here in Texas and I’ve been enjoying our trips to Target! I also got to meet up with a Florida friend I haven’t seen in years and I had SO MUCH FUN with her at Universal! Speaking of my BFF, she took took a leap and changed careers. I’m so so proud of her!

I started my own business, something that happened as a whim of an idea and turned into something so much more. I’ve had so much fun exploring this other side of creativity and self expression. I’ve reached out to vendors and learned how to outsource my products as well as make them in house as well.

Started my journey to financial freedom, which I know is going to be a struggle no matter how “set” it may look. Now it’s on to mindfully buying things and not splurging on shit I don’t need. I’m thankful for the guidance I got for this journey. So thankful. You will never know how thankful.

I’ve been spending more time with my friends, either on the phone or threatening them to meet me in Florida. And it’s reminding me of who I am, where I came from and what I’m capable of. I’m extremely thankful for all the time I get to spend with my really close friend and someone I’ve considered an older brother my whole life.

Reliving our memories from 14 to now at 36 has been wild. It’s crazy to realize how much time has passed and how different we are now. But it’s been fun going back there. I was SUCH a weird kid, seriously. I have some of the best memories with him through out our teen-hood. We made so many promises that would encourage us to be better people even as kids. And it’s wild to see we still do that to each other now as adults. He’s only ever wanted what was best for me, always. I’m glad we’ve been able to stay friends for this long.

I started taking steps to enroll back into school to finish my BA (a little under 2 years left) and changed my major to fit my new goals. I’m really excited about this change and finally finishing my degree.

I’m happy with the things I did manage to do with courage this year. I can’t wait to see what 2022 brings!

What was your word for 2021? Do you think you did well with it through out the year?

Hello December

Happy. Freaking. BlogMAS!

It’s finally the last month of 2021 and I’m sure I’m not the only one who is just so ready for 2022 at this point!

I had so many goals for 2021 and I’m happy that I took the steps to make those goals happen. I might not had known what I was doing half the time but half of learning how to do something is to just do it. The last half of 2021 was something else. I would have high expectations for this month since it’s the last month of the year but honestly, I’m just tired. I’m hoping that it doesn’t snow. That it doesn’t get TOO cold. There are fun holiday photos I want to take and holiday things I want to see. But if it’s too cold that’s a pass. Which sucks. Plus I don’t really have friends here who will take photos of me like that so. There’s also that.

There are a few things this month I do want to get done, that have to get done;

| Start cleaning things out and prep for packing/moving

I’m horrible at this one! I always tell myself I’ll purge before a move and I never do. Then I get irritated that I didn’t because then it’s just so much more stuff to pack that I don’t even need. I don’t like the feeling of bringing extra energy you don’t need with you so I’m goig to try really hard to do a way better job with that this move!

| Apple for the new place & put in my 30 day notice

I always forget to do the 30 day notice thing even though I’ve had ONE bad accident with it in the past. But it’s also why I’m a bit iffy about apartment management but I def need to put in my 30 days and apply for the new place. Which I low key also hate doing lol.

| Get rid of more books

I feel like this is a never ending task of mine. I’m forever going to be getting rid of books. I’ve already stopped doing OwlCrate. But with a move coming up, I don’t really want to pack all these books all over again.

| Read 16 books or 6 books or just 1… JUST READ

I’m 16 books behind on my GoodReads challenge and I doubt I’ll be able to finish it this year. Which this is fine. But I do want to at least try and hit as close to my goal as I can.

| Use or toss ALL snacks before the move

I have a problem with hoarding snacks. I need to take pics of the holiday ones I have, but I haven’t yet. I’m trying to be better at hoarding snacks this month and next month before the move. I’m not planning on taking any of this stuff with me.

| Purge clothes… realistically

I have a HUGE problem with this one. But I need to realistically get rid of clothes I don’t even remember I have. I don’t know why I hold on to clothes like that. It’s the weirdest thing to me.

| Eat better

I need to start eating better just because eating fast food as much as I do is starting to catch up to me. I really want to get my health back on track. I need to start going to the gym again too.

| Prep for 2022

This means manage my bills/autopay shit. Purge things (and people) I don’t want to bring with me into 2022 and making clear goals.

What are some things you’re hoping to accomplish this month? Are you ready for 2021 to be over?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

I know it’s been a minute since I’ve blogged anything; my mind has just been thrown around everywhere. I really wanted to do blog/vlogmas but I just wasn’t prepared at all. It’s okay, I can jump in now, it’s not too late to!

This week I’m trying to get things back on track. Trying to get back to updating my shop and my shop blog as well as post more on my Disney and food accounts. I’ve just felt so stuck… most so than usual here. And I think I get like this every time I come back from Florida too… I remember how alive it feels there and to come back to TX where it feels slow paced… just sucks. Literally wondering why I even moved here, honestly.

This quote from Hamilton really struck a cord with me, because it’s been a quote/concept I’ve carried around with me my whole life. It’s also probably why I’m not a huge fan of Burr. I’m more like Hamilton in so many ways.

I told my BFF that 2022 is going to be the find yourself bitch year. Which means going wherever my soul tells me I need to go. Be around the people who have always had my back. Be the real me and not whoever people here think I am.

And if I don’t stand for the things that make me me, then what will I fall for?

This week I want to manifest just that — to do the things that make me me. Time is ticking and I’m not getting any younger. I’m tired of being unhappy and it’s up to me to change that.

What is something you want to manifest this last month of 2021?