My 3 Must Watch Spoopy Movies

My 3 Must Watch Spoopy Movies

Sorry ya’ll, I’m not a horror junkie. I hate scary shit. I hate being scared, I get ridiculously pissed off when I’m scared.

I do however love gothic fantasy. Paranormal elements. Things like that, as long as it’s like… you know… not creepy. There’s such a fine line when it comes to that. So here’s my safe seasonal movies lol! I really thought I had more but I don’t. I’m not a huge Hocus Pocus fan so that’s why that’s not on my list.

| The Nightmare Before Christmas

This is a must. But it’s also a must year round. I usually start playing the intro song around the time I start prepping for Halloween. Which is usually in July. I love that this movie can apply to both Halloween AND Christmas. My favorite scene has to be the intro when he’s The Pumpkin King. I wish that got a bit more screen time!

RETURN TO OZ, Pons Maar (center), Fairuza Balk (right), 1985, © Buena Vista

| Return to Oz

Okay I guess this one is seriously up for debate on if it’s spoopy or fuckin creepy af. Lucky for me, I grew up watching this movie and I still watch it — it’s my “bad day” movie. I have a lot of very sentimental memories with this movie and my Lolo (grandpa). Doesn’t help that maybe Mombi and The Wheelers are my fav. Next to TikTok.

I do hear that this movie CAN be terrifying and I guess I can see why. It’s like a darker Wizard of Oz. The Gnome King really freakin annoys me though. Like, the audacity of this guy. I have so many favorite parts of this movie I don’t even know where to begin! As a kid I always thought the Lunchbox Tree was cool. Like if that was a real thing. Wish they had went a bit more into who Mombi and Ozma were.

| Witches

I grew up watching this one. Ironically it wasn’t the witches that scared me. Or his weird sketch grandma. It was the girl who grows old in the painting. Even as an adult that part still sends goosebumps up my arm. But like I said, I grew up watching this so I have some fond memories of catching this one live on TV! Lowkey miss when there was a certain time certain things came on.

To be fair the acting in this one isn’t top notch and there’s a lot of things that don’t make sense. Like weren’t they children once? But whatever, I guess.

So that’s my very short list of my top 3 spoopy movies!

What are some of your non scary Halloween movies?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

Ooh look what’s back this week! Idk if it’s Mercury Retrograde but this weekend has been flooded with a few hard hitting realizations.

Sunday was World Mental Health Day and USUALLY I have some well thought out post on social media and my blogs but this weekend I was just… I had the worst creative block. And a sneezing fit. But that’s different.

And if I could grant you peace of mind, would it be enough?

Something about this segment that seems to repeat itself through out Hamilton lives rent free in the front of my mind lately, not just that but it strikes a cord with me.

I struggled a lot growing up. I was shy because I was insecure. I was insecure because I was never encouraged; I was encouraged by my Lolo but he passed away when I was 9 and I had nothing after that. I was told a lot of hurtful things growing up that undermined my intelligence, my perception of myself being a good person, my beauty, my anything. Anything you could think of. I spent a lot of my childhood depressed and feeling worthless. I TRULY DEEPLY felt like I was a waste of space. That everyone in my life would be so much better off and happier without me bringing them down or getting in their way.

I still carry these insecurities with me. I’m MUCH more aware of them and it only took me 30-something years to realize most of them were far from true. Here’s the thing though — you could be 110% aware that something isn’t true about you. But because it was drilled into your head that it “is true” you start to doubt yourself. DESPITE KNOWNING that it’s not true.

I had refused to wear shorts and skirts and dresses until I was 31. And I fuckin lived in Florida. I refused to be outside of my house in anything less than a tee shirt. I hated my legs, I hated my shoulders, I hated my collarbone. I hated that I was flat chested. I couldn’t understand why anyone would truly be attracted to me. At 13 I started thinking about suicide. At 14 I met my really sweet friend Dru. He was adorable and popular and he was really sweet and kind. And I was like, in love with him for awhile, I asked him out like 5 times and he said no every single time. It’s cool, I never held it against him. And honestly we’ve been really close friends for the last 21 years, so.

I have so many memories of him convincing me that I’m worth something. That my life is mine to make. And even now 21 years later he still reminds me he needs me here. This year I’ve been reminded that people really fuckin love me. People really fuckin support me. I have the MOST amazing friends a girl could ask for.

This is getting way longer than I thought it would.

My friends have played a huge part in helping me build myself back up.

Just stay alive, that would be enough

I caught COVID in May and the amount of friends who would check up on me, who sent me get well gifts… was touching. I know my friends love and care about me, but I guess I just didn’t really think about how much I meant to them. This year has been reminders of exactly that and it’s something I’ve needed.

This week I want to manifest that everything I think I am, I am. I want to stop selling myself short.

Fall Bucket List

Fall Bucket List

I’m gonna go ahead and say that this is gonna cover half of November as well. With my seasonal late ass.

| Visit a Pumpkin Patch

This has been on my Fall Bucket List forever. Some day I’ll actually go to one. You’d think there were a ton in Texas, but for some reason there really aren’t that many in my area.

| Eat Disney Fall Snacks

I’m celebrating Halloween at Disney this year and I’m SO EXCITED. It’s been years since I last have and I CAN NOT WAIT. I already have a food wish list lol. Disney snacks are obvi my fav but Fall snacks even more. I’m so glad most of them aren’t exclusive to the Halloween party anymore!

| Do a Fall Photo Shoot

This sort of ties in with visit a Pumpkin Patch. There aren’t many places around me to take Fall photos; I may just have to do one while I’m at Disney instead! But I’ve always wanted to do one of those cliché Fall photo shoot’s people do! I’m still salty I didn’t get to take maternity photos like I wanted to! I’ve resolved that if I want to do something, I’m gonna have to do it and I’m responsible for making sure it happens.

| Bake Something Fall Themed

This is one that’s been on my list for a while now! I finally have a Kitchen Aid so I don’t see why this can’t be done this year. And I’m not talking cupcakes or cake or anything. I want to do something like Fall themed bread or a pie… something warm, cozy and comforting spices!

| Paint a Halloween Light

They have these at Michael’s where you pick a blank object to paint and it’s actually a table light! I don’t think Tums is old enough to do this one just yet, but I really want to start doing this myself. I don’t have many Fall/Halloween traditions, so I think this would be fun.

| Make Caramel Apples

I keep buying things to MAKE caramel apples but I end up eating all the supplies. I LOVE caramel apples, especially the ones from Disney. I use to work at Candy Cauldron so I know HOW to make Disney caramel apples lol. I just need to stop eating everything before getting there. And I need to find the right kind of caramel!

| Read Spooky Books

My Halloween Reading Challenge falls into this one! But I tend to set aside most spooky books for October!

| Decorate for Fall

I usually start this one in July, I live in places where it doesn’t get cold until December so it doesn’t really matter how early I start. However this year I haven’t even started yet. I just haven’t been in the Fall mood for some reason this year. Granted most Fall seasons in TX haven’t really been that great and have sort of been taken away from me. But I plan to decorate for Fall/Thanksgiving pretty soon.

| Light all the Fall scented candles

This one’s a given but still deserved to be on this list. Thankfully I haven’t gone crazy on the Fall scented candles or wax melts this year!

What are some things on your Fall Bucket List?

September 2021 Recap

September 2021 Recap

September somehow felt like the shortest month ever. I don’t know why or how but I barely remember September. Literally, it almost feels like it never even happened.

Seasonal depression decided to kick in hard and early, so that might also be why. So much harder that I haven’t been in the Fall mood, and it’s usually the only time of the year I actually look forward to. But this year I don’t seem to have any desire to decorate, or even LOOK at Fall snacks. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me but this is unusual, for sure.

READ

I started reading Lakesedge by Lyndall Clipstone and The Kingdom by Jess Rothenberg, I didn’t finish a book. I barely read. I’m really hoping Oct will be better.

SAW

Tums has been watching Bluey non stop. It’s not such a horrible show. It’s actually kind of funny. I’m confused at how their parents play games with them 24/7.

I also made lyric quote stickers that are up on my Etsy shop!

I finally gave in and watched Hamilton, I regret not watching it sooner. It was completely moving. It reminded me why I loved History as a kid. It reminded why I love theater. There’s so much to say about it. I’ve been listening to the soundtrack nonstop.

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5 Ways to Self Sabotage Your Own Health

5 Ways to Self Sabotage Your Own Health

When it comes to our own health we tend to make excuses for ourselves, yet when it comes to someone else’s sometimes we have the most to say when it’s really not our place/business. I know I’m guilty of this! I don’t eat as well as I use to (really trying though) but I do know I think about it often and tell myself next week, next month. It’s not about going hot turkey (is that the opposite for cold turkey or nah) on being health conscious, it’s about making mindful steps towards better habits for yourself.

But we’re not talking about that here, we’re talking about the 5 ways you can sabotage your own health (and yourself).

| Eating straight up crap

Eating crap will make you feel like crap. Period. I love McDonald’s just as much as the next person but eating it all week or super frequently can’t be good for you. There are some times I can eat something super unhealthy and just feel it cling to my insides if that makes sense lol. Fast food places offer healthier stuff but at the end of the day, it’s still fast food.

I know for me when I add more fruits and veggies into my meals I tend to feel better. Less heavy. The only thing I can’t kick is soda and coffee. But hey, well have to have “our thing”. Though sometimes coffee really makes me feel worse than better. I know this one is a “duh” but it still needs to be pointed out.

| Being un-active and wondering why you’re always tired

I’m totally outting myself with this one.

Since moving to TX I don’t go out as much as I use to, and when I do, I don’t do a lot of walking like I did when I lived in Florida. Bub isn’t big on walking and since it’s hot here the majority of the year, sometimes he won’t even leave the car. That makes it hard for me to find time to just walk like I use to. Because of this, my sciatic nerve has been acting up and that shit is not fun. I do find on days when I walk a lot it’s not as painful.

Makes me miss living in Florida and going to Disney World all the time.

I do find that when I’m less busy/active I tend to be MORE tired. I mean I don’t sleep well and I haven’t since 2006 (really need to get that checked) and since giving birth I REALLY don’t sleep at night; but I try to be active. Tums likes to play hide and seek and kick ball (in the apartment) so I take every chance I can to actively play with her. I find that if I’m more active during the day I’m less likely to want/need a nap; verses when I’d spend all day in bed or have nothing going on, I tend to be more tired and sleepy.

| Ignoring your own boundaries

I think most people are guilty of this one because we want to avoid conflict. Which is totally valid. But what is the fine line between it all? Everyone has their own set of boundaries for a reason, and sure we let people slide from time to time to avoid conflict but that’s just us self sabotaging.

Boundaries are hard for other people to understand, especially if your boundary is something that was “okay” at one point or if it’s something they don’t like — or can’t control you with. But it’s important to you and your well being to stand by your boundaries and enforce them when they need to be.

| Drowning yourself in work because you can’t find/afford therapy

Hai, me outting myself again!

Therapy is a bitch to find in TX and when you do find it, you have to go through so many things just to be able to finally SEE a therapist. It’s so crazy and time consuming. I have a habit of throwing myself into work in general but also intensely so when I’m in a mood.

The Rock says this interesting thing a lot: “I hit the gym so hard because I refuse to go to therapy.” or some shit. But that was my eye opening moment that everyone goes through it and a lot of us find vices instead of help. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with that, at all. I think this habit of mine is productive, but that’s just me.

| Not listening to yourself

Your gut won’t lie to you. Ever.

If you feel like a place, person or situation isn’t good for you… you’re probably right. If you feel like your body is telling you to chill tf out and rest, you probably need to. WE usually know what’s best for us, more than anyone else but we listen to everything and everyone else BUT ourselves.

It’s def time to start listening to ourselves more.

What are some other ways that belong on this list?

Small Business Sunday

Sundays are always my favorite days to dedicate to just blogging; I use to do a weekly recap on my first wordpress blog and I miss doing that but my life isn’t as interesting as it was in college. So I decided to do this instead!

I’ve always loved supporting small businesses. I’ve been buying on Etsy since 2008, my first wedding’s party favors were bought on Etsy. I had so much fun connecting with sellers trying to find the perfect product for my favors. I get super surprised to see some of my favorite shops from back then still up, running and thriving! It’s amazing.

Since opening my own small shop, I’ve been small shopping even more. There are SO MANY talented creative people out in this world! So here are a few I’ve purchased from in the month of September.

The Busy Mama Co

Recently bought the Mind Your Own Motherhood sweater and it’s my fav! Super cozy too!

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Halloween Reading Challenge

I’m super happy with how this graphic turned out. I guess I’m getting better at Procreate!

It’s that time of year again, where I attempt to do my favorite annual reading challenge. I set certain books for just this challenge. I’ve discovered so many of my favorite series with this challenge!

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Once More Upon a Time by Roshani Chokshi
What Once Was Mine by Liz Braswell
Lakesedge by Lyndall Clipstone
The Nature of Witches by Rachel Griffin
Foretold by Violet Lumani
How Witchcraft Saved My Life by Vincent Higginbotham

SCRIBD

Ghost Wood Song by Erica Waters
Poisoned by Jennifer Donnelly
The Girl and the Ghost by Hanna Alkaf
Goosebumps #16: The Scarecrow Walks at Midnight by RL Stine
The Night Garden by Polly Horvath
Cinders & Sparrows by Stefan Bachmann
The Queen Underneath by Stacey Filak

TBR

Once Upon a Broken Heart by Stephanie Garber
The Toy Makers by Robert Dinsdale
Curses by Lish McBride
Gold Spun by Brandil June
Curse of the Wolf King by Tessonia Odette
A Curse So Dark and Lonely by Brigid Kemmerer
The Bone Houses by Emily Lloyd Jones
Midnight Sun by Stephanie Meyer
There Will Come a Darkness by Katy Rose Pool
All The Stars and Teeth by Adalyn Grace

I’m obviously not going to finish this entire list, especially considering how busy my October already is with my shop, doing blogtober, doing drawing prompts and with my trip coming up later this month! But I do want to get through as many as I can and I’m even hoping to find time on my trip to read in the parks like I use to! This is basically a list to remind me of what books I need to get to lol. I took such a long break from reading that I feel super behind; but it’s hard to find time to read when you’re watching a toddler. I can barely find time to sleep (it’s 340am right now and I’m trying to finish this post).

I thought of finishing The House of Salt and Sorrow but it got really creepy, so I shut it and didn’t pick it back up after that lol. Not sure if I’ll ever finish it, but I really want to!

What are some of the reads you’re hoping to get to this spooky szn?

Hello Blogtober!

I’m so obsessed with Procreate

How the hell is it October already?! That’s so crazy. This whole year has been crazy!

Although I had said I was going to take a step back from blogging this year, I did want to try doing blogtober as I do every year. I don’t expect to do the whole 31 days, but it would be nice if I did. I do have a trip planner later this month, I’m hoping to get my posts pre-written before then.

OCTOBER GOALS;

— Release October shop update (that’s today)!
— Release small Etsy shop update!
— Keep up with Blogtober
— Complete annual Halloween Reading Challenge
— Get a Halloween costume
— RELAX as much as possible on trip
— Organize office (esp the closet)
— Prep desk so that I can fit small biz stuff on it
— Stop by the State Fair

I’m not trying to give myself too much to do this month since there’s already a lot to focus on. But I’m really excited for this month!

Are you doing blogtober this year?

Monday Mindful Manifestation

Talk less, smile more. Don’t let them know what you’re against or what you’re for.

Possibly the worst advice I’ve ever heard. I watched Hamilton not too long ago and I’m completely utterly obsessed. It’s been the only thing I’ve been thinking about for DAYS now. I mean I started listening to the soundtrack months before I decided to watch it. I just figured it wasn’t my type of musical. Despite 2021 seems to be my year of historical fiction.

That moment when you realize you’re probably Alexander Hamilton in this musical. Minus the advice he gave his kid. I refuse to watch that entire scene ever again. Mf I was sobbing and I never cry at movies.

It’s a pet peeve of mine to come across people who don’t stand for anything. Not just that, but have the audacity to stop someone else from standing what they believe in. I don’t need anyone to fight my battles, never have and never will. But also, don’t stand in my way. If you don’t agree with me, cool. Sit ya ass down. My ex husband (when he was still my bf) hated that I was pro-gay up until we divorced. He literally thought that children who are AROUND gays would turn gay themselves. I remember buying a shirt when I was 19 that said “I you don’t believe in gay marriage, don’t marry one” and he thought it was “stupid”. He hated that I was passionate about animal rights. He hated that I wasn’t a fan of eating meat either. And don’t even get me started on how “stupid” he thought being vocal about mental health was. Or how he was convinced I was “making up” OCD and anxiety because “that shit isn’t real” DESPITE that I went to therapy for 8 years. That he would come with me to. WEEKLY. But you know, yeah, I’m def making this shit up. Mf, what.

It was his theory that if you stayed quiet, no one would have anything against you. Spoiler alert: if a mf wants to hate on you, they will.

I think I’ll talk more and smile less. I think I’ll let them know what I’m for and against so there isn’t a chance for miscommunication. Is it possible to manifest staying true to yourself?

Btw, Aaron Burr annoys me lol.

Save Our Sea’s sticker sheet

It’s my BFF’s birthday week! In honor of her birthday I decided to create a sticker sheet based on something she’s passionate about and to pick an organization for me to donate the earnings to. She’s really into conservation and eco friendly living; so I came up with this sticker sheet.

It includes the Lionfish (which can be found in the Philippine oceans) and crabs (something found in abundance in the SF Bay Area). I’m so happy with how these came out! A lot of my art work has this sketched out look to them and I’m really digging it. I’m surprised how much I love these little sea animals I drew! I’m legit no artist, don’t ask me to draw a human. But these don’t suck.

That’s a total win.

If you’d like to purchase one you can here on my Etsy shop.

Proceeds of this purchase will be donated to Green Peace.